That is what in my mind...B-L-A-N-K...I need somebody to help me out..to be my trigger..and restart my engine again....I need "something"inside my mind...But I do have a feelin right now..a guilty feelin..for having this such a thing..I dont wanna hurt and troubled people that loved me..I'm sorry...
wake up..i’m here..
wake up..u r standing free..
wake up..and i’ll promise u there will be no more fear..
smile..and i’ll give u more
smile..coz thats why i’m here for…
smile..and u wont feel the wound anymore..
sing..coz thats how i want u to see..
sing..coz hey maybe thats also why you are here..
sing..so u can hear me whisper through your ears..
wake up, smile, sing,
stand up, look up, n trying
wake up, smile, sing,
there is nothing more sparkling than keeping this feeling..
seeing, caring, and luving..
u, u and u..
smiling, thinking, and missing…
u, u and u..
angie..
cepat sembuh y..:)
--September,21st, 2008, 04:21:21am--
this is what my baby sent to me when I was crumble and got sick because of it..its actually a text message..It gives me strenght when I read that...and I know..that I'm not alone..I got him now..thanks baby..you're sweet :)
"anggie tu ya..my other half,tau aja maunya aq apa..bs aja ngertiin aq gmn..sabar aja ngadepin smua yg ada ttg 'kami',anggie tu..strong believer,org yg optimis bgt, slalu percaya ma org2 yg dsekitarnya, kesabarannya bs ngebuat apa aja yg g mgkn bs jd mgkn,her spirit can break down any barrier in front of her..anggie tu take differences as a part of completion, dia bedaaa bgt, sifat, karakter, mindset, smuanya bedaaa bgt, tp dia bs yakinin klo itu la tujuan dr smua,saling melengkapi, love can beat all of the differences..last anggie tu.. a truly good lover, no other words can replace this, her tender, caring, makes u think that she's the only person u wanna be with..which i do..muah..just a simple words to let all of u know how i treasure her..yeap she's my other half..n yes i'm so glad to have her next to me..more than she ever know..or realize..can't wait to have u back in my arms..sharing our thoughts and dreams..only us..us..n us..luv -rief-"
really blow my mind...thanks bebh...Luv u too :)
I think I'm gonna miss him...*and his camera..hahahaha* but I'm glad his dream came true *hope mine too* wish you all the best Mr.Mentor...thanks for everything...
P.S: the Photos will be upload soon :)
I admit that I regretted myself on lately days. I should be in a place that I wanted to go if I had a holiday. But I can't..coz I dont have a required things that they asked. As u can see..I'm still here...then I prayed a "suprise" to be true..but *again* situation chose the opposite way. I knew it, it can't be happen but I still tried to convice my self that its still gonna be happen. And when it gone too far, I barely realized that I hurt myself. I got to face the truth. Its not gonna be happen. After flowed out those negative ideas in a discussion with my baby..I felt release..he knows what to do*I really feel blessed that I've got him for me now*. All I have to do is....be patience..and stay positive...can I?we'll see....I'm a real fighter or just try to be a fighter..
Suddenly, something wrong happened with my stomach, I got stomach ache...it's hurt. Maybe I ate the forbidden food I should not take or it's just because the enter wind, hehehe....I dont know..I admit that I ate so much today. Cheche drove me to eat and of course I'd love to do that :p But No need to worry...the ache is already handled by now...and hope I'll be better tomorrow.. :)
Those are my first photos taken on my first photo class session. Those are considered as "fine". Just 4 pictures from about 65 pictures in whole. Still need to have much learn. I'm doing the composition right now. It's not only supported by my mentor (who's sometimes be my model and lend his camera, you can see him in the picture, thanks Mr.Mentor), I got support from my love one too, Rief. I've got all that he knew from camera. Thanks bebh...its really helpfull and couraging me...:)