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new year late post

2012-01-27T18:03:00.002+07:00

well, it's almost the end of january and l haven't post anything to start this year. I hope everyone had I great new year eve and going good day by day :) . Honestly, I kinda lost my words lately, somethin' is bothering me. Try to fix it, everysecond. The one that always been my 'peace place' is my Rief, he can make me 'real'.

lost myself, quite hiding..and still can't make to the surface
all I can see is dark..

n.b: Just another 'galau' in part of my life, yaiks!

Si Hitam

2011-10-12T13:59:00.001+07:00

Ini Si Hitam..

Kucing betina yang lahir dari kucing hitam pekat yang memang demen lahiran di kosan (jaman masih nge-kos). Awalnya Hitam punya 2 saudara, satu sangat mirip dengan dia dan satu lagi warna coklat bintik2 hitam. Mereka sering banget nongkrong di tangga depan pintu kamarku. Mungkin karena tangga itu beralaskan karpet, jadi lumayan bisa memberikan kehangatan, sementara ibu mereka pergi mencari makan atau ntah kemana. Jadilah pemandangan 3 kucing kecil itu biasa kulihat.

Naluri penyayang binatangku jelas muncul..berusaha memberikan mereka makanan atau tempat untuk berlindung.,tapi sayang..ntah apa yang ibunya ajarkan pada mereka, setiap aku atau siapa saja berada dekat dengan mereka, mereka memasang tampang siaga, berusaha mengusir, seperti ingin menyerang. Ya.. mereka takut pada manusia. Aku tetap memberi mereka makanan, dengan hati2 pastinya.

Sampai pada suatu hari satu persatu kucing kecil itu hilang, ntah kemana. Tinggalah si Hitam sendiri.Ia mulai tumbuh besar, masih remaja kurasa. Sedikit demi sedikit aku mencoba mendekatinya, memberikan ia rasa nyaman sehingga tak takut padaku. Lama kelamaan usahaku berhasil. Ia dekat denganku. Malah tak ingin keluar dan jauh dariku. Setiap aku pulang dari aktivitas seharian, ia akan selalu menunggu di tangga depan kamar dan miaaaauu..pintanya ingin di elus. Manja sekali..

Seperti biasanya aku melakukan aktivitas, begitu pulang aku tak mendapati Hitam di tempatnya. Aku masih berfikir mungkin ia hanya main. Tapi sampai esok dan keesokan harinya lagi, ia tetap tidak pulang. Sepi rasanya...tangga itu kosong...Tak lama kemudian aku mendengar bahwa kucing lain (Kokom) yang juga kucing di kos ini juga hilang. tepat bersamaan dengan hilangnya Hitam. Kurasa seseorang membuang mereka. They're just innocent creature, why they did that..Kesaaal sekali atas apa yang mereka lakukan pada Hitam.Wajar kalau ibu hitam mengajarkan Hitam untuk takut kepada manusia.

Suatu hari ketika aku iseng2 cek isi memory kamera, aku mendapati foto ini. Begitu lihat tanggalnya..tepat sehari sebelum ia hilang. Ini foto terakhirnya..

Sedih..sangat kehilangan...merasa bersalah tidak dapat melindunginya, maaf ya Hitam..

berharap seseorang memeliharanya dengan sangat baik.

berharap bertemu dengannya satu waktu..

miss you Hitam...you will never be forgotten...

Our New Form :)

2011-09-20T21:54:00.001+07:00

From just 4 of us, now plus one, my husband...they are my treasure

Love u all! :* :)

Editor Page!

2011-09-20T21:41:00.000+07:00

Wow! I'm suprised! the editor page had new look. Well..kinda confused here...hehehe and I lost those emoticon..the old ways is expired...no such emoticon here..huhuhuhuhu...what to do...what to do...but I bet someone will find the way...to put those emoticons back...

we'll see...

My Prewedding Photos

2011-08-11T12:30:00.011+07:00

Taken by Gading Sitepu (Tata), great job!thanks so much
Concept : Casual Candid
Location : Sabuga & Reading Light
Costume & Make-up: Me

Miki & Mini

2011-07-19T22:24:00.005+07:00

My Ma & Pa 's another Pets..Miki (behind) & Mini (front) is a couple, can't be apart, and having such personality. Miki is pretty cute, just like another cat, suka di elus suka dimanja, suka berkomunikasi (maksudnya suka miau2 gak jelas ), lucu..buut..he 's so lazy, tidur sana sini dan suka pipis sembarangan, sering lagi ... Kalo Mini ini..secara tampilan lucu, putih bersih, besar badannya pas (kalo miki gendut gitu), cutee..tapi sifatnya gak lucu deh, susah dipegang, gak manja, cuek, susah ditangkep, sibuk sendiri, jauh dari sifat dasar kucing (yang lucu). Walopun gitu, Ma& Pa sayang banget ma mereka berdua ini.
Kalo jadi kucing, gw bakalan cute gak ya ?Miaaaauuu...

12 July 2011

2011-07-12T21:09:00.004+07:00

Today is my b'day..yay! Woke up by this b'day cake in my hubby's hand..suprised me :) and all day long all my friends send their greet and b'day wishes for me, I'm happy,found that I had a lot of caring people surround me..thanks all!of course thanks God,for still giving me time and moments .

My Wedding Souvenir

2011-06-21T22:40:00.007+07:00

Hi there! yeap..I'm married! and officially being a wife..hehehe, rada lama ni up datenya. Dont thikin' bout me having a honeymoon..not yet, masih beres2, yaa..aktivitas pasca hajatan nikah deh, yang pindahan, yang kunjungan keluarga dll deh. Honeymoon nya kudu ditunda dulu, kita pengen nunggu waktu yang tepat, lagian masih bingung ni mw kemananya, pengen honeymoon yang bener2 bisa keluar dari rutinitas, bener2 libur (sekaligus honeymoon) . Post tentang marriednya ntar aja ya..hehe, lagi mood share souvenir nikahan kita nih.

As you can see, our wedding's souvenir is salt & pepper shakers. Kita pilih ini karena selain fungsinya, well we just like salt & pepper . He's salt, dia selalu bisa menempatkan dirinya di suatu situasi, sama aja kayak garam, makanan gak kan ber "rasa" kalo gak ada garam hehe, and I'm the pepper, coz I like to spice up, suka sesuatu yang sifatnya seru, sama kayak merica yang bikin makanan jadi lebih..spicy, lebih seru makan nya..hehehe. Makanan yang kita makan jg gitu, Rief suka banget makanan yang asin, chips, cheese, etc. Pedes2? nah ntu bagian gw deh.
Bentuk yang kita pilih kupu-kupu karena dua sisi dari sayap kupu2 kan gak kan bisa satu sisi aja, butuh dua sisinya supaya terlihat cantik dan bekerja dengan baik. Kupu-kupu juga dipilih karena memang tema dari nikahan kita itu"alam", dan kupu-kupu termasuk bagian dari alam yang cantik. Warna yang kita pesan juga warna2 alam, hijam cream & coklat cream, sesuai tema juga. Thank you card nya itu, pastinya disediain sama yang bikin undangan, makanya mirip hehehe *FYI buat yang bakal nikah, itu free kok dari percetakan undangannya, so dont worry *.
Actually, pas proses souvenir ni gak terlalu mulus juga, yang salah nangkep lah padahal kita mintanya gimana, yang salah cetak jadi kita rugi waktu, yang ini itu lah..tapi alhamdulillah semua dengan sabar bisa kita hadepin, and alhamdulillah hasilnya ok. Well gw saranin kalo mw mesen souvenir, lo kudu bener2 control pembuatannya, klo gak sesuai ma yang lo mau, langsung bilang, and pilih tempat yang bener2 recommend, jangan milih tempat yang gallerynya ternyata bukan hasil karya mereka, bisa keliatan kok bedanya, kalo bisa yang ada testimonialnya. Tapi yang namanya proses persiapan nikah emang ada2 aja masalahnya, bikin stres, tapi setelah udah selesai gini atau pas udah deket hari H nya, gw akuin kalo stres2 itulah seni dari persiapan itu, hehehe..seru.. don't miss one of those moment ya..

The Hall..check!

2011-06-10T23:57:00.002+07:00

So this is the hall, yeap ini waktu cek2 gedung minggu lalu, berhubung si papa ada perlu, sekalian juga kita liat2 gedungnya, secara arief belom pernah tau gimana bentuk gedungnya. Namanya Jasmine Harmony Banquet Halls. Pemilihan gedung waktu itu berdasarkan kebutuhan, pengalaman *sepupu taon lalu juga nikah disini*, kedekatan *jarak dengan rumah, lumayan deket emang* dan harga. Gw suka gedung ini. Biasanya dulu juga berenang di belakang gedung ini. Ada fasilitas sport center gitu. Pas rencanain nikah, langsung kepikiran ni gedung. Ada dua gedung yang ditawarkan disini, ada jasmine, n orchid. Kalo mw tau lebih lanjut klik aja Yasmin Centre. Kita pilih jasmine ya alasannya yang tadi gw udah bilang. Nah sejak dipilih sampai minggu lalu, arief blom tau gimana dalam gedungnya, tapi finally dia bisa tau juga..hehe, and it's more than he expected, he said. Well good then.

2 days b4 the wed

2011-06-10T22:36:00.006+07:00

Dua hari sebelum melepas status' single', makin dagdigdug..wondering what it would be. Yang lain makin sibuk ini itu, nah gw makin gak boleh ngapa2in. Bener gak betah deh. Tapi apa boleh buat..nurut aja dah. Beberapa orang bilang sebelum acara gede kayak gini, biasa nya ada aja yang gak mulus. Ternyata gw ngalamin juga, jalan terdekat menuju gedung tiba2 di cor. Salah satu hal yang bikin stres juga tuh. Mikirin ntar gimana tu tamu2, mau gak mau menikmati macet. Wah itu bener2 tiba2 deh, kalo dia cornya udah dr 5 bulan lalu atau 3 bulan lalu, mungkin bisa pindah gedung aja sekalian *ngayal*, lah ini..awal minggu ini tiba2 pada sibuk2 di jalanan. Haaaa , hasilnya ya macet cet cet....yang awalnya bisa 10-15 menitan udah nyampe gedung, itu bisa 20 menit- 1,5 jam *hasil itungan gw bener tuh*, ampun deh!

Jalan itu juga pas banget depan perumahan gw, jadi lengkaplah, makin gak pengen kemana2 gw. Sebenarnya masih ada beberapa jalan lain c, menuju gedung. Tapi emang ni jalan yang paling deket, apalagi kalo dari luar kota dan sepertinya emang bakal jadi jalan pilihan tamu2. Yaa..what to do..selain ini ada aja cobaan2 yang lain, tapi ya kudu sabar..pasrah aja, karena kadang ada beberapa yang memang di luar kendali kita kan, so mw gimana lagi coba.
Gooshfrabaaa..

Seperti kebanyakan calon pengantin cewe lainnya, kemaren gw ke salon. Yay! , akhirnyaaa..waktu untuk rileks. Seneng banget deh. Pilihan jatuh ke salon deket rumah. Namanya Salon Rengganis. Salon ini khusus wanita gitu, yang laki2 mw gimana bentuknya gak boleh masuk *sorry guys*. Pelayanannya ok, semua mbak2nya pake seragam n keliatan banget punya standard khusus pelayanan. Wah apalagi waktunya, time management sangat penting gt kayanya disana, kudu precise semua service nya. Menyenangkan laaa. Gw disana dari sebelum makan siang mpe jadi pelanggan paling akhir yang dilayanin, literally..tinggal gw doank,mreka udah beres2.

Perawatan yang gw ambil dari kepala mpe kaki. Puasss. Foto di atas tuh pelayanan terakhir yang gw lakuin, foot spa gitu hihi, and sebetulnya di belakang2 itu kursi2 udah pada rapi di susun, peralatan udah pada disimpen rapi, lantai udah di pel gitu, udah pada siap pulang tu mba2. Jadi grogi sendiri deh, hehe, tapi mba yang handle gw tetep bilang "santai aja mba, gpp", sambil senyum gitu. Tetep aja gak enak hati . Beneran dia selesaiin sesuai waktu yng ditentukan donk, sampai tuntas semua, dengan hasil yang bikin gw ngerasa enteng, n bersih. Pulang berasa paling cantik dengan hati senang..

Besok bakal jadi hari yang lumayan melelahkan. Pagi bakal ada pengajian, siang bakal ada acara mangalemangan, acara adat batak gitu. Mangalemangan ya prosesi melepas anak lah, kalo anak cewe mungkin kasih makan terakhir gt, sekali lagi gw mah ngikut aja. Sodara2 doank yang bakal ada. Kalo pengajian nyokap yang arrange, ada tim pengajian ibu2 itu, n katanya gw bakal ngaji depan mereka. Waduh! biasa nih, grogi, ujung2nya jadi takut salah baca gara2 grogi. Mudah2an besok lancar jaya, aaaaamin. Doakan sayaa!

5 days b4 the wed

2011-06-07T21:56:00.010+07:00

Udah masuk k masa karantina, hihihi, ya kalo bahasa ibu2 nya dipingit..gak boleh bawa mobil, gak boleh capek, gak boleh aneh2 *tapi saya udah aneh, gimana donk..*, gak boleh sibuk2..yang terakhir susah banget nih, karena biasa jadi seksi sibuk Yaaa..intinya diri harus dijaga karena ada acara besar dan waktunya udah tinggal 5 hari lagi. Badan harus sehat, pikiran mesti rileks supaya tampilan juga lebih oke.
Pikiran rileks ya..hmm, susah juga tu, ya gak bisa juga klo gak kepikiran ini itu, ada aja yng kepikiran. Jalan keluarnya, berdoa, beribadah di waktu karantina ini..karena banyak waktu lowong, makin banyak pikiran yang mendera, yang takut ini itu, kurang ini, aneh2 deh, bikin stress. Namanya juga acara besar, bukan besar dalam arti bener ya..tapi ini moment dimana gw bakal masuk ke fase baru dalam jenjang kehidupan, punya pasangan seumur hidup, lepas dari tanggung jawab orang tua, bukannya bermaksud lebay juga c, but really..it's a big moment..jadi ya kepikiran semoga rencana berjalan lancar, jangan sampai out of control.

Yaa...mudah2an acara dan pernikahan itu sendiri dijauhkan dari kekurangan...aaaamin ,bantu doain ya guys...

N.B: Beberapa post belakangan ini penuh dengan doa, hehehe, harap maklum yaa

Invitation

2011-06-04T22:22:00.005+07:00

Finally, undangan sudah disebar ..alhamdulillah. Undangan cetak udah mulai disebar seminggu yang lalu, dan untuk e-invitation baru di kirim malam ini..yay! now let me show you our invitations, ya mana tau bisa bantu2 yang lagi persiapan nikah, hehehe.

Undangan Cetak

Undangan ini kita pesan di Jasmine Invitation. Kebetulan salah satu pegawai kantor kita (gw & rief) punya pacar yang kerja disana. Jadi ya daripada ribet2, kita putusin pesan disana aja. Banyak pilihannya *tinggal klik aja tuh d link nya,kalo mw liat* , trus bisa disesuaiin sama mau nya kita & budget yang kita punya. Terbantu banget deh. Thanks to Helpy & Laras

E-Invitation (E-Wedding Invitation)

Nah buat yang ini, kita buat berdua. Wah ini buatnya seru banget. Karena nanti tema acaranya coklat-hijau, jadi undangan cetak & e-invitation masing2 beda warnanya, satu hijau, satu coklat. Dibuat simple dan sweet, se sweet kita berdua..aheeey..wkwkwk Mudah2an pada suka ya liatnya

Wah, udah seminggu lagi aja..makin nervous....

24 April 2011

2011-05-20T11:27:00.017+07:00

That date when I got officially proposed by Rief's family. But first I wanna flash back to when Rief's proposed me at the first time hehe . Kejadiannya waktu kita masih long distance gitu, satu waktu dia punya waktu liburan yang cuma beberapa hari, dan dia berkunjung (read 3 days of euphoria ). The last day before he went back to KL, we had a game that time. Kejadiannya di BIP lantai 2. Kan ceritanya kita mw tukeran kado ni, maksudnya biar kalo kangen ada souvenir lah yang bisa menghibur . Nah, jadi gamenya kita harus cari tu kado dalam waktu sejam. and balik ketemuan di tempat kita pertama kali. Jadilah berdua hunting kado masing2. Pas sejam kemudian, gw balik ke tempat kita pertama kali, si Rief's udah duduk manis. Hmm..mikir dalem hati, gw udah bawa bungkusan kado kok dia gak ya, wah curiga dia gak beli apa2. Positive thinking, gak mikir aneh2..ya udah, gw duduk. Dia seneng banget liat gw bawa kado yang lumayan gede bungkusannya. Ya udah deh, dia aja duluan yang dapet kado, habisnya dia udah girang pengen tau isinya, gw mutusin begitu. Kadonya itu celana yang dia sempet pengen, plus gespernya. Selesai menikmati kadonya, dia bilang dia gak tau beli apa. Tuh kan bener, pasti bingung deh, gw dalem hati bilang gitu, menurut pengalaman mang cow2 rada sulit kalo urusan beliin kado *no fence guys* hehe. ya udah deh gpp kita makan aja, gw maklumin. Trus dia megang tangan *gw kira mw ngajakin k tempat makan*, ternyata masukin cincin ke jari manis kiri gw. Gw kaget, kejadiannya cepet banget. Bingung, seneng..waaaa!! trus dia bilang cincin ini janji, dia bakal balik * k indo* & ketika waktu itu dateng, gw ma dia kan jadi satu, and will you marry me came out from him. Wah..langsung deh gak kontrol, malu-malu gitu.., jadi salting..ketawa2, ah aneh deh sambil jawab ya jadi ketawa sendiri kalo inget .

Lamaran 24 april 2011 alhamdulilah berjalan lancar, pelaksanaan dibantu oleh seluruh keluarga besar,Thanks everyone, bener2 pengalaman yang sangat seru! di bawah gw share beberapa fotonya. Enjoy!

cute emoticon

2011-05-19T21:56:00.002+07:00

Yes! I finally did it..I got emoticon on my blog now..yihaaa..
Isn't that cute? hihihi

Hey Hey!

2011-05-18T10:13:00.003+07:00

Trying to learn somethin' today.., and trying to find inspiration for my wedding's e-invitation..wait up..I'm not telling bout this yet..hehehe yeap yeap! I'm going to married soon! one month from now I will b officially unavailable..tadaaaa! Tepatnya tanggal 12 juni 2011. Berita belum terlalu tersebar, jadi baru keluarga dan orang2 terdekat saja..hehe Actually, ini udah dipersiapkan sejak desember 2010, 6 bulan persiapan, alhamdulillah *dengan tiada maksud apapun ehm ehm* kita membiayai pernikahan ini sendiri! horaaaayyy! sangat bersyukur pada Allah SWT..seperti dibukakan jalannya..makasi ya Allah. Awalnya kita udah siap2 dengan budget setengah dari whole budget untuk acaranya..setengah nya sambil jalan menuju k hari H..rada deg2an juga sih, bisa gak bisa gak ya? alhamdulillah sekarang beberapa udah lunas, tinggal beberapa hal2 kecil yang belom. Sekitar 85% deh persiapan yang udah selesai..mudah2an 15% persen lagi juga lancar selesainya, biar tambah lega. Sepanjang persiapan seperti kata orang2 yang udah nikah, pasti ada aja masalah pas persiapan itu, ya kita sempet ngalamin sih, dari yang masuk rumah sakit, skripsi di pending, nyari bahan sana sini, kerjaan gak beres, bolak balik, salah paham ah..lumayan deh bikin stress, mental ma fisik di uji banget..tapi alhamdulillah bisa dihadepin . Seru sih...hihihi *bisa ngomong seru pas udah bisa ngadepin aja* hehehe.

Setiap orang pada nanya,"gimana sih rasanya", "apa yang dirasain ni sekarang?bentar lagi nikah looh"..dan beberapa pertanyaan lain yang intinya sama, klo ngejawab pertanyaan itu rada gimana ya, habis yang di rasain, campur aduk, yang excited, deg2an, terharu, lebih k emotional feeling aja sih..tapi kalo ditanya satu kata yang wakilin mungkin "deg2an" karena bakal masuk k fase hidup baru..dan karena itu fase nya baru, jadi deg2an bakal kayak gimana ya ntar..hihihi.. hmm..selain itu juga deg2an apa semua persiapan yang dilakukan 6 bulan ini bakal sesuai rencana pas acaranya..duh..jadi deg2an nih...mudah2an semua lancar..amin..wish me luck!

G at cousins's wedding 2010

2011-05-09T13:25:00.006+07:00

This is me at my cousin's wedding last year. There was four weddings, it celebrated round the end of april to the middle of june, I guess.. kinda forget..hehe, different themes, crowds, foods, and of course the dress..

jadi banyak kebaya nih..hehe..well I'm wondering, who's wedding this year?

make my way

2011-01-20T22:41:00.005+07:00

Why this feeling should come out
It's not really good to have it
Lot of scare and doubt...
Somesay "just let it flow"
Ya I know..It just me that unusual to that flow
Worry is such a feeling..
My life suddenly become so uncomfortable
I'm in the middle of confusion, stand and stare
depends my life to someone's hand
So tense..ruined my life..
I lost my dreamland, there's only nightmare
and fear of tomorrow..

Please God help me!
open that someones hand and heart
so I can have my way..
and I can do what I have to do..

I'm so worry...

cute!

2010-11-27T10:56:00.008+07:00

This is Rief *with his Ipad, you must be happy dear :D *

& this is me :)

Miss you Pa & Ma

2010-11-24T22:41:00.007+07:00

This is me, my Pa, Ma and my brother, Aswin. It was on my parent's ceremony of HAjj before they leave to Mecca. It taken on this early month. So, apparently they still on Mecca now...and going back next month..5th december 2010..kinda miss them, hope they're ok, we'll see you soon Pa & Ma, love you both :)

Fear kills me

2010-10-13T18:55:00.006+07:00

I'm in the end of my college time..having my thesis to be done. I know I just start it..even chapter one is not finish yet. Just right now, I'm doing my thesis..and like the other people..sometime "stuck" may come..hehe..

Well actually,lately weeks there's a lot of things interfering me during this thesis process. Not only from the outsider..it even comes from inside of me. I recently found myself filled by so much fears.

Am I trying to perfect? so that fears comes and bothers me?..
Well I dont know, maybe..

All I know, everytime I try to do somethin..I worry about so much things, that feeling is really suck! I hate it..part of myself know that I'm not suppose to be like that. Having fears and lost for it is not good for our life..I know..But I still feel it somehow..huff..I try to make myself relax and told myself to be stronger..I used to know someway to make it works, but not this time...those way lost their magical touch for my spirit and my confidence..I really dont wanna waste time, presicious thing that God give to me..this is my moment..I push myself to rid of it, but I still cant escape..what should I do? should I push myself harder this time? *sigh*

I pray..for God to help me..
There must be somethin wrong about me..
I gotta move on..I want to...
please light my way..and I shall know what to do...
I will try better..amien

Semangat! Gambatte! Jia you! Fighting!
yoooshhhhhh...

huff.. *sigh*

Happy B'day Momz!

2010-09-13T19:53:00.006+07:00

Yesterday was my Mom b'day..so we (Pa,Bang aswin,Wigi,Tante Yetty,Kak deazy, and Tante Tuty) set up a suprise for her. We gave her a b'day cake, my mom never had a cake b'day in her whole life, no blowing b'day candles, no her own wish b'day..never..so this time we gave her that...and it worked, she was very suprised, she didn't expect it..and the important things that, she was so happy about it. It ended with a dinner.

all the best n God bless you, love u mom..always :)

Lebaran!

2010-09-13T17:58:00.010+07:00

Happy Idul fitri..gimana hari lebaran kemaren?pasti masing-masing punya cerita yang seru ya. Well hari itu seperti biasa, karena aku berasal dari keluarga multireligion, dimana keluarga mama ku adalah non muslim (mama ku mualaf sejak menikah), so setiap lebaran, aku merayakannya bersama keluarga besar papa ku. Tradisi keluarga ini sama seperti keluarga lainnya, berkumpul bersama di rumah salah satu anggota keluarga, membagikan "salam tempel" (angpau versi lebaran), makan-makan, temu kangen sampai bergosip ria..hehehe This big family is really awesome, everytime we met like that, I never get bored, there always somethin to be talked and laughed about. You should come with me :)

After having a family gathering, we went to kalibata graveyard for my opa. Kami pergi kesana juga tahun lalu (read Visit and Graveyards day! ). This time, my uncle family came with us and too bad my brother can't join us this year, bcoz he got sick. Since my uncle family consist of some kids so after visit my opa stone, we look around, seeing our previous hero stones while my father told us about the history. I love history..and I feel it's cool when I look at their stone, well they was a hero who defend our country..or I guess It's just me who feel that way..hehehehehe

I hope all of you have a very nice lebaran too :)

Tomorrow is Lebaran

2010-09-09T12:01:00.005+07:00

Lama tidak bersua lama juga gak bercerita..hhaa..besok udah lebaran..horay!! setiap rumah sudah bersiap dengan kue2 khas lebaran, baju lebaran..bersih2, masak2..seperti keadaan rumah sekarang. Tapi klo udah mw lebaran gini, jadi ngerasa yang kok cepet banget ya..udah mw habis aja puasanya..mungkin lagi enjoy2 nya kali ya..makanya mikir gitu. Mudah2an taun depan kita bertemu lagi ya ramadhan..Amin ya Allah..i'll miss u.. :)

well for all of you who celebrated Idul Fitri..Happy Idul fitri! I would like to apologize for all that I've done..and wish you a sacred Idul Fitri, minal aidin walfaidzin.. :)

sibuk mode:on

2010-08-04T09:25:00.004+07:00

Duh hampir sebulan gak mampir2...kangen banget, udah gatel mo ng-post..so much story to tell, and pictures to share..tapi apa daya, mesti ngurus ini itu, yang deadline dan teman2nya..doain semoga semua urusan lancar, so I can b here again..semangaaaaat!!!!!

Happy B'day PaPz!

2010-06-29T16:38:00.023+07:00

Well..sebetulnya udah lewat sih ultah papa 17 juni kemaren, and selametan ultah papa, tanggal 19 juni nya. Sengaja di undur supaya keluarga besar bisa dateng, karena diadakan pas weekend and most of them nginep disana..what a fun!

Bet you knew where it held, yeap that's in KEBUN (read "kebun" gathering 2009), the place is been nicer than the last post about it..we really want to make it comfortable for the guests..walo memang ada beberapa yang berhalangan hadir, tapi acara ini tetep rame and seru! there are soooo many pictures (need 2 facebook's album) that I've taken for this event and those are some of it..you can find the other on below link...

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=183681&id=655486596

and (I told you..it's quite a lot)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=184455&id=655486596

enjoy!

Big Family

2010-06-15T21:22:00.005+07:00

This is my Big Siregar Family..masih ada beberapa yang gak dateng, so bisa di bayang in kan besarnya keluarga ini..hehehe..mana kompak lagi, lov you all!! By the way,can you find me? :p

Old Archive by me Part II

2010-05-26T20:24:00.002+07:00

Kau

aku hidup karena kamu
cahaya itu adalah kamu…karena itu pengabdian tulus hanya milikmu
aku punyamu
kamu tahu kuanya untukmu dan ku percaya akan semua kata terucapmu

tapi kini,
apa mimpimu akan kita??apa ingin mu?
kemana “arah” itu??
mengapa seakan terbang tiada bekas ketika masih ada aku di hari esokmu?
masihkah ingin aku bersamamu?

tetapkan hatimu
berhenti berpikir
lakukan!
ini hidupmu…

Another post of mine from my old blog, sekalian pindahan ni. Kenang-kenangan dari masa lalu hehehe. Biar jadi tolak ukur supaya gak galau lagi *halah*. Semua nya galau, so sorry buat yang baca, kalo jadi bloomy2 gitu. Saya dulu memang galau mellow hellow, ckckckckck, sekarang alhamdulillah udah menjauh dari yang begituan :p Ntar bakal ada lagi, posting beginian, gak banyak kok *untung dulu gak banyak ng post, capek juga ni pindahannya* , jangan ikut-ikutan jadi galau ya teman.. :)

drew together :p

2010-05-24T12:01:00.005+07:00

I found this in Rief's cellphone. I dont know that he took picture of it. But I do remember, we were on dinner that time, and we drew together on the tissue. Obviously, that's not good..hehehe but well, oftenly..this is what we like to do while waiting for our orders to come.. :)

Old Archive by me Part 1

2010-05-22T11:09:00.006+07:00

Aku ingin

aku sendiri melawan rintang, bergumul dengan semua
berkutat dengan kebingungan,bersama sepi yang masih memelukku
aku hanya ingin meraih
hanya tangan yang sedang menggapai
berbuat yang terbaik kumiliki
lalu…
buah itu hanya untuk kalian
aku memang hanya kertas polos
tapi aku punya asa akan warna ku
aku memang tak tau dunia
tapi tak bolehkah aku bicara
ku tahu banyak akan suara ku
tapi untuk esok aku tak pernah ingkar
ku tahu apa maksud akan cerita kalian
ku tahu suara yang kalian gumandangkan
aku sangat mengerti…
tapi tak bolehkah aku mendengar hati bicara
mimpiku menunggu tuk terwujud
tanpa sia-sia dalam gapaiku
aku butuh kalian
tapi..
biarkan aku seperti layang-layang
dan kalian akan tetap memegangku erat
saat ini pun gelap masih menemaniku
sayapku patah…dan menghilang….
jadi tolong aku ‘tuk dapat terbang
sehingga cahaya itu akan dapat aku raih
dengarkan aku…
karena kali ini
aku sangat ingin lakukan
dan benar-benar butuh kalian
beri aku terang….dan harapan…

Nemuin ini di blog lama G, haaa..galau habiss..and emang semua seperti itu..yaa..you know, tiap orang pasti ada jaman galau mellow helooww..ini salah satu nya..ntar di post lagi deh yang lain, mo menikmati weekend dulu ni..hehehe have a nice weekend guys! :)

Time Crisis End :p

2010-05-21T18:02:00.006+07:00

This is me & Rief successfully defeating Time Crisis (one of the Time Zone's game).
We are really a good team.

We can make it till the game's end, you can see it from the credit tittle behind us..
Finally! :D

Mr.Grasshopper

2010-05-21T17:58:00.001+07:00

While I was watching last night,
There's an insect came into my room from out of nowhere..

Mr.Grasshopper!
Hellooooo...
Wanna watch with me? :)

Batik Works

2010-05-19T20:58:00.007+07:00

Hi! it's been months I didnt post anything..just drop by to say I MISS my blog soo mucch..and share somethin. Well today is my team's presentation day..and we did well..according to the audiences..we give a very nice first impression by wearing Batik..and they also like the presentation, they really got the idea..I'm so excited, after what we through for the preparation, those all are worthed..and I feel release too..thanks to Rief for helping, and of course my team, Anty, Rika, Eka and Andy, Hopefully we get the best..Well done mate!

save by Rief :p

2010-03-25T12:12:00.004+07:00

Long time no seee...kangen ni ma blog, bukan karena gak mau ng-post, tapi karena si blog nya tiba-tiba eror..so under maintainance deh...tapi akhirnya masalah terselesaikan dengan baik, dengan bantuan my great and lovely Arief..tengkyu sayaaaang..hehehe..

Well mpe ketemu di post berikutnyaaaaaa.... :)

BEAN

2010-02-03T10:57:00.005+07:00

BEAN are Nando-vocals Ridzki-piano Aswin-bass Baim-drum

I've been watching their live performance (read Representative Building), and it is awesome. Nice music, concept and personal. When I heard the music of BEAN, the sensation is like being in a different dimension because every songs 'born' to be special and was on the different track of POP alternative. I think their music will bring a fresh breeze for Indonesian's music industry that currently kinda boring for me. Believe me, their songs is worth to be heard. There is the following video clip for their debut of their first single "Dariku Untukmu". This song had become one of the soap opera soundtrack, but I forget which one, hehehe .. This song sounds nice and fresh .. plus a cool video clip .. I think that's really good start for them. Spread the good news, BEAN is here!! Enjoy mate :)

Dariku Untukmu

Sampai di hari ini
Tak kutemukan cintaku
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi
Karena aku tak bisa memilih nya
Ku hanya rindu dirimu disini
Temani hidupku

Dariku untukmu
Sebuah kata maaf yang mungkin
Bisa mengobati hatimu
Dari luka yang ku buat

Bagiku dirimu
Lebih dari apapun itu
Kembalilah kau kepadaku
Aku membutuhkan mu

I want it!

2010-01-27T15:14:00.007+07:00

Well it's been so long that I've gone right..so new post for you...I'm just dealing with some stuff and those spent a lot of my time..missing my blog, hmmm..lately I've been thinking..have you ever ask yourself "what do you wanna do for your life?the exactly things that you do to reach your dream or plan"..that gives me spirits..it makes me figure out, I have plan, I have dream and this world is such a materialistic..but beautiful if you can make it to...(I believe that), moreover, the time is too precious to be left. I want to do something that I like, something that I smile while doing it, something that I do with my heart. So I dont have to complain or regret about it. I want to happy while I'm doing it, cause I'm sure, when I'm happy, I can share it to anyone.

Then I found lot of idea in my head that I wish could be my way to fill my precious life, and some of it, I try to do it, although it is still in progress, but at least I did the start and I would like to finish it. I know and I can feel, doubt and fear surrounds me, the fear of failure hunts me, but you know what, I gotta try..I have to push myself to do it, or I will regret it (again), that I never dare to start it, and I dont want to call myself "coward" for the rest of my life. So this is I am now..I can say that so much things that I would like to know or do it, for now, I really dont know which one that I can be focus on, I have to try all..coz I dont know at all at least I try it first. I will try so much, even its hard...cozI believe in myself...I have dreams and I have to make it happened..so pray for me guys..wish me luck! :)

MUMU is Here

2010-01-13T14:15:00.007+07:00

Let me introduce you to MuMu..

MuMu is a name for my FUJIFILM FINEPIX S 1500 :p it's my first kamera, yeap, setelah penantian panjang, yang selama ini hanya menyalurkan hobi moto dengan kamera hp, akhirnya punya kamera *beneran*. It is just a Pro Summer Camera, kamera yang punya kemampuan lebih dari kamera saku tapi gak merepotkan seperti kamera Digital Single Lens Reflex (DSLR). For me, MuMu is enough, belum perlu yang keren2, ni udah pas ma kapasitas yang aku punya. Jangan salah..gambar-gambar yang di hasilin bagus, gak kalah ma DSLR kok and I believe, generally the photo quality isn't because of the camera but more the person using it...so it give me courage to do it better time to time :) Hasil foto MuMu is already on my DA ( check it -- > http://astridiction.deviantart.com or click the link on the right) dan juga bakal ada beberapa di blog ini. Can't wait to take more picturessss...I really love it! :)

Silent day..ughh..my throath

2010-01-05T18:33:00.008+07:00

I'm having Silent day. Not spoken since I woke up this morning until this moment. Well if you think I'm on strike or something, you wrong. Actually, I really want to talk, but unfortunately my throat hurt. Uuuugh...yeap, hurt. So it becomes Silent day for me.

It makes me wondering, what sore throat is, because some people, including me, always connect it with the unstable weather and body condition. But that's it, I want to know more. Well..after searching hard everywhere (hehehe), Sore throat is the first sign of infection upper respiratory tract (colds, flu, tonsillitis). It is also a symptom of strep throat, which occurred due to failure of lymph nodes against bacteria or viruses. High-carbohydrate foods such as cakes, biscuits, and sugar intake combined with a low key micronutrients can lead to the occurrence of sore throat. Sore throat is usually worse by the fatigue, stress, smoking, and excessive alcohol consumption ( thanks God, I'm not into smoking and alcohol consumption). Throat disorders, acute or chronic, common in Indonesia, especially before the rainy season, when the virus and more allergic factors appear, so that cases are accompanied by sore throat as well as more colds. Especially during the rainy season, decreased immune system due to allergies. If not caused by a dangerous bacteria infection, sore throat can usually be cured by itself, without drugs.

To ease it, there are a few tips as follows:
* Get plenty of rest
* Eat sucking tablets (lozenges). These tablets are beneficial for reducing symptoms of inflammation and sore throats because it contains antiseptic, which is a substance that can kill or stop the growth of germs, especially in the mucous membrane mouth and throat.
* Drink plenty of water or fruit juice. Drink at least 8 glasses of water per day to keep your throat is not dry.
* Gargling warm salt water or mouthwash to reduce the pain. To make a salt water solution, mix 1 / 4 teaspoon salt in 1 / 2 cup warm water.

That's all guys. I hope these tips can help you, who have the same throat problems as mine. Now, I just need to do these tips and see the result. For you all, dont forget to take vitamin (especially vitamin C) and drink lots of water on this unstable weather, stay health guys! :)

Welcome 2010!

2010-01-01T13:24:00.007+07:00

See your calender, today is 01-01-2010..first day of new year. How about last night? I just had dinner with my b/f and then stayed at home waiting for midnight new years fireworks. Simple but I like it, coz it's our 1st new year together in Bandung. Futhermore, the traffic is more crowded than usual..trumpet, horn and fireworks are everywhere..everyone wanted to celebrate the welcoming of new year..so we both decided not to go outside, they didn't need us..hehehe..How bout you new year eve? bet all you had great time last night. Well..Welcome 2010! best wishes for all of us... :)

Before I miss 2009..

2009-12-28T10:31:00.022+07:00

There's several things that I wanna share before I leave 2009..hehehe

My b/f finally quit smoking! yippey!!! how i excited to know that..actually it accidentaly happened. He got sick, so he supposed not to smoke. But then he still do it after he recovered. Although it's only about three weeks but it 's still in progress..

Just like the other case of "stop smoking", my b/f had to distract his need of smoke to somethin else. I told him not to choose candy (which it be the first distraction that chosen on another case of "stop smoking"), because it can turns to be candy addiction and for sure, it's not good for the teeth and the jaws ( I read and watch somethin about it :) ). So, the distraction supposed to be somethin good and positive. Well, he choose movie DVD's for it. Yeap, now he loves to watch, especially collecting the DVD's. For your information guys, he's not that into movies before, but now..he really catchs up my stuff hehehe..I'm a moviecholic so, when it turns to be movie..I can deal with that..hahahaha...well so far, he's doing great, and I believe he can do it to a complete stop from the addiction of smoke..no more smoking...fight-fight, dear!!

According to the advice and knowledge that I've got, after a stop smoking process. The body will turns to be fatty. It happened because when someone stop smoking, it can increased appetite. So, in order to prevent those "fatty", My b/f and me decide to do excercise ( I do it to support him and for my own health of course :) ). Then we need shoes..hehehe, we did shop together and we got them..

Now the shoes are ready, all we need to do is the exercise. Wish us luck guys..stay dicipline on the exercise schedule and live in the healthy lifestyle with healthy soul. Gambatte!!! :)

See you on 2010..have a great new year eve guys!!

mOOnlight

2009-11-26T11:22:00.005+07:00

This is the moon on this early november, I took it when I was waiting for my fried rice :p
The nite sky seems so bright with that light..beautiful isn'it? :)

Kitten on the Hood

2009-11-12T12:23:00.009+07:00

Last tuesday my friend asked me to drop by for moment to his house before we went to college. He need to take somethin. While he was inside , I was just looking around in front of the house and I found them...four kittens with different colours. Digging the garbage, looking for food..and sometime they were looking each other with those "miau...miau"..I was wondering what they say each other..hehehe :)

for good (bye)

2009-11-09T19:07:00.007+07:00

time walk through..
life normally run like it used to..

one day and another day
I met a story..my memory..
that left in a hurry..

once..
love touched, smile and flew me..
but when it hurt..
I forgot it..
I let it...
go..

I had try my best..
now I'm a friend for the rest..
I shall say thank you and sorry..
care is still there, so dont worry..

this eyes will see in a distance..
pray for the right way of chance..
wish a good luck..

my wound healed as the time goes by
for my memory..now I shall say goodbye..

eN.Be: just a thought for an old story..

A & G

2009-11-02T10:29:00.007+07:00

A to the A..

G to the G...

Well...

this is A & G.. :)

KKN in Jatisari

2009-10-27T20:36:00.008+07:00

I know I've been gone, without any post..Well, full schedule of college stuff, from assignment to assignment until having KKN program. This program really took my time than those assignments. The program is about giving community service to a village and it's for a group. One of this program's requirements, I have to check my group program's service every one day in a week (so I got Bandung-Jatisari-Bandung trip in one day, damn rough and dont forget that I have class after that..huff) and stay in a village for every weekend in two month ahead. Yeap..I lost my favorite days..saturday and sunday..no more lazy days..huff *sigh* what to do..I got to do it..

Jatisari is the name of my village. It's about 2 hours from Bandung. Actually the track is not too bad, but it's sooo faaar and the traffic..owwwh..one word : bad. I always got into a traffic jam anytime I go there. Fortunately, the village is great, view, people..all the environtment seems good so far..About my group member, they came from another faculty of my college. My group consist of 22 members including me. They're quitely nice and kind of the easy going one. Keep up guys!hehehe..

so I know you will miss me..ha-ha..but you know that i will always back, right?..so c u soon and wish me luck! :)

I dont know..

2009-10-12T14:58:00.004+07:00

sitting..holding knees..
making all the probability..
solutions that cannot be seen..
dark......blur......
and slowly..I found fears..

the more I think...
the more I lost about it..
I'm killing myself...
what should I do?
Do I just need to let it?
there's nothing on my side..

Hope still there..
Always there....
the reason I still be here..

-G-

N.B: being lost in confusion..but somehow I know I have through it all..

it (was) Batik day :p

2009-10-12T10:59:00.005+07:00

Well, it was October 2nd, 2009.. when batik is being recognized by UNESCO as an Indonesian cultural contribution to the world . It is a valid reason to celebrate this beautiful traditional fabric and the garments made from it. Most of indonesian wore Batik on that day, not just the institutions, but me also. Yeap.. I wore Batik too, nice isn't it? hehehe... :p

Guinea Pig

2009-10-01T16:34:00.007+07:00

One day I went to one pet shop in Bogor with my Mom. She planned to buy kind of kitty food or somethin', while she tried to find it, I looked around..and I found this cute creature..yeap! this is Guinea Pig. They are about IDR 500.000 for each (I dont know if it's cheap or expensive), and if I'm not mistaken they're bout 4 years old. They look like a rat, but much bigger and without tail. Soooo..cuteeee...I want to have them, but still thinking, coz I have to make sure that I can pet them nicely. Guess, I have to talk with my baby first..hehehe. Well..if you've seen The Bed Time Story and G- Force movie, I bet you knew how cute they are..kawaaaaiii neee.... :p

"kebun" gathering 2009

2009-09-28T15:32:00.014+07:00

So this is another gathering of my big family. Actually, it has not been a plan at all. But, since my parents rarely go home *bogor*, then they decided to have family gathering at last saturday in my place. My father invited all his siblings. The place is not in our home, it's another place..we used to call it "kebun". My parents owned the place, a yard with house, ponds and plants *vegetables* surrounded. Nice place to run from the city's life. So many activities happened there, some were fishing, and other were cooking while the others ,playing card..hehehe, me? I just part of cheers team and baby sitter for my lil' nieces.

One of them is interested. Her name is Tias, but as you can see in the picture, she looks like a boy with that short hair. More over if she dress like a boy..you will notice her as a boy, believe me. She's so attractive, cant make her quite, she did this, did that..ran here, ran there..an make noises..huff..kiddo..but in the end, she was quite fun for me, coz she was different to another, the unique one... :)

Good moment of this gathering was when we ate together. Even we just ate an ordinary food but the food feels so delicious, I guess it's bout the togetherness of this family. Well even there were not all the member of this big family could attend this gathering, I still can feel it. I'm proud for being part of this family :)

Happy Lebaran 2009 !

2009-09-22T23:06:00.009+07:00

Just like a year ago..every Ied Mubarak (Lebaran), after having sholat ied *this year I have it with Ana, my cousin and my bro*, I have a family gathering to be attend *read "behind family gathering 2008"* it's a tradition that run in my father family. All those 14 family *my father had 15 sibling actually, but the second has passed away* are gathering in one place. For this year, it took the oldest sister places, and I called her Bou *it's a bataknish nickname*. Unfortunately, my parent had to missed this event, coz their job. So, Me and my bro were presenting in the name of our family. A lot food is always be my attention *besides those each family it self*..hehehe, this time we have nice salad and meat ball, yummy-yummy...hehehe. Of course, I was playing and hang out with cousins, aunts, and uncles too, I wont miss that moment anyway. Can't wait to have this event again, and next time, I hope my parents can join us. :)

Happy Lebaran Guys...minal aidin walfa idzin... :)

Visit and Graveyards day!

2009-09-22T22:35:00.013+07:00

I had a long journey today, with some check point spot...hehehe... Well check it out..

1st check point : the oldest sister of my Pap family' house.

We went there..chit-chat, playing with my niece and nephew, and prayed together . You can see me and my niece on the picture. She is very cute right? her name is Cilla, taken from "Pricilla". She likes to write a story and of course playing somethin' pretty. Pink stuff is everywhere. We were writing together in her diary and she show me all her toys and her strawberry shortcake's dvd collection. Once, she and her brother asked me to join her game, which is I did not get it. It's like hmm... spy and shock..I guess...we spy someone and then shocks that person. I dont know..hehehe..but it seems so fun for them. :) Actually I want to have a picture with her brother, Nanda. But he's so shy, and it made me so difficult to have a picture with him. He's cute too, I can imagine how handsome he would be when he grow up. After that short time baby sitting..hehehe, my family is leaving to the next destination. From this visiting, my Mom got two plant *quite heavy* from my aunty *my mom likes gardening, read "Jemani"*, she's very glad about it.

2nd Check Point : "Kalibata", Jakarta , My " opa" graveyard

it's been a years I didnt come to this place. Two or three years ago..maybe, well it’s Indonesian hero’s grave, the biggest hero’s grave in Indonesia. My “opa” is one of them. Proud of him :) this place is very nice place for a graveyard..it has a stone that has all the name of those heros that buried in there. Try to find my opa's name on it..he died in 1972, his name is E. Sutomo, by the way, the atmosphere is so peacefull, I think those hero’s feels great about it too.

3rd Check point : Cipaku, Bogor, My “oma” graveyard

Well..it’s in bogor. So we came in and out for a toll road to get here. Thanks fully, we did stop for having late lunch *coz it’s afternoon already*. We choosed Rollies in Cibubur, and then gone rightaway to Cipaku, after it. You can see it, this graveyard is very different to Kalibata. Of course, it’s just a common graveyard for civilian. But It’s quite peace too.

4th Check point : Bogor, My “ompungs and uncle” graveyard

I’m a bataknish *although I can’t speak the language,hehehe”, so I called my grants with ompung. Both of them are buried in here. My uncle too, he is the the second siblings of my father family. They buried him in the same field. This graveyard is for civilian too, big one and it’s quite spooky, with those big banyan trees.

5th Check point : Home

Huff..we got stuck on the way we go home. Traffic Jam! Huuf….so long and tiring..but I try to enjoy it since I’m with my family, complete version : Mom, Pap , Bro and me. Oya, my talkative aunty for the extension..hehehe..So excited! well I almost a month in bogor, but I just *finally*meet my parent bout two days ago. Missed them so much…and it makes traffic jam nothing for me and us. We got home without knowing how much time we spent for it. That’s just because the jokes and the laughs. :)

It’s tiring but it’s very nice trip that rarely happened to me *coz we’re all busy person*. Hope it may happened again with another destination :)

Good Friends & Bad Movie

2009-09-16T12:45:00.007+07:00

Yesterday, I had time with my CP1's friends. Yes..finally we can have time together since I didn't go home in times..hehehe. There was Vanny, Amar, Yonti, Nuri, Ando and me. Actually it's more than that, but just five of us that can make it. So, we broke fasting first at BNR's foodcourt, and we continued to see movie together. Vanny was very curious bout The Final Destination, so we choose to see that. It started at 9 pm. After 1 hour and 15 minutes we just watched how people died, the movie is end. Yeap just like that. Short movie and I dont know..I think it's crap..the story is so similar to former movie of this (trilogy, sekuel and the 1st one). Well there's a good effect on this movie *actually when blood or other part of the victim's body spread everywhere..yaks!* and good details about the way the victims die, but it was so predictable. Not fun at all for me. I dont like this movie..it didn't give me a good impression..terrible..

Buuuut I did have fun with my CP1's friends. They were acting so crazy, and make me forget about how terrible the movie was. Thanks for the time guys..we should do it again...with a better movie of course :p

Representative Building

2009-09-09T13:32:00.014+07:00

Yesterday my brotha' asked me to come and watch his band, BEAN (Brilliant Energy Accoustic of Nebula). It's in Jakarta, and took place on indonesian representative building (gedung MPR), one of prestigious place in this country. This place had made a lot of histories and regulations for this country. They were invited there to entertain the closing of an event called "Parlemen Remaja". I used that opportunity to take photo of that place as well, not much, just some part of it hehehe. Sorry if it's not nice...I just used phone camera :p I just dont wanna miss the moment. Ow ya..Afgan was in that event too, I'm not a fan of him, but I like his song. It was fun actually..the event and of course..BEAN too..

NB: still feel lost and trying to live without Jaky..
thanks to my Bro, for asked me to go to this event..

Good Bye Jaky :'(

2009-09-07T02:36:00.006+07:00

I'm on bended knee..with a heart broken..
looking that lilttle body with black hair..
on white sheet...
he's cold...

a few days before..I got the sign but I denied it...
my ego tells me..I still need you to be around..

I do still remember how we met each other for the 1st time..
you stole my heart...
I know that we're belong together from that time..
the way you walk, how you spoil..being so cute and annoying at the same time..
it pictured in my mind..
but what I remember so much is our silent conversation..
a kind of best friendship you offered me..
you are my best companion..you know how lonely I was..
you always light my soul..
made me smile when i start to cry..
shine my day when it turns to bloom..
you naturally give what I need..
and you dont take a grant for it..

you complete a place that I called HOME..

september 7th, 2009

I lost you..in my arm..

sorry for not being a good friend..
sorry if I've been hurt you..
sorry for not always there for you..
sorry If i dont get what you want..
I'm so sorry...

thanks...
thanks for giving me chance to know you
thanks for stay with me...and always be there..
thanks for our times together...
thanks for the laugh and light you gave me..

you are the best and the one...
good bye my best buddy...

I love you Jaky..
we'll miss you...

in Memoriam

JAKY

1998-2009

Tangkuban Perahu

2009-08-25T15:05:00.008+07:00

Few month ago..on the end weeks of it precisely...I went to a mountain called Tangkuban Perahu. It quite nearly to Bandung, where I lived. I went there with my friends. It was just four of us. It's one of tourism place of Bandung. I've never been there althought I already lived in Bandung bout 6 years. What a shame..well whatever!at least finally, I got there :)

Well there's a legend story behind the name of this mountain, Tangkuban Perahu. It tells about a boy that fall in love with the everlasting beauty of her mom and dont believe the fact that she's his mom. One day, he asked to marry her. The mother surely know that it's impossible *and dont want too*, so she make some excuses. She will accepted the propose, as long as he grants what she wish. She wants a big..no..no..a very huge ship that made by himself before the sunrise. She thought that her son will refuse it, but not..arogantly, he deal with it. He did that very good and make the mother worried. and it about close to be done and sunrise ready to appear, the mother prevents it to be happened. she tooks a stick that used to be a traditional tools for processing paddy to be rice *in west java* and the chicken make a noise. The son heard that and feel so angry..because he thinks he failed. When he goes angry, the ship is rolling back, and becomes a mountain. that's why it called Tangkuban Perahu, Tangkuban means roll back. and perahu is ship.

That's just a local story of it. I dont know if it's true or not. But as u can see in pictures, it has a good view, and so many spot to get a great pictures..hehehehe..you can make it as lo as u like hiking, I dont like hiking..but it was fun..that time..I think it's because..the photo's session :p

if you wanna see more photo of these..just click it..
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=88810&id=655486596&l=c25e65a0cd

Rief's Birthday :)

2009-08-24T15:56:00.010+07:00

Yesterday is my Rief's birthday..23rd august...at first, I was actually planning to make a lil' supprise for him, since this is his first b'day that we're together...but I ruined that...actually he forgot about the day, but my mouth can't hold the secret and I remind him like I dont thinks bout what I've thinking before..huff..I just wanna make it special..but thanks for God for sending me the sweetest boyfriend I've ever had, he did not complain and still enjoy the rest of the day..what a sweet of him...

Happy b'day Cumi...hope everythin goes fine and all your dreams may come true..all the best..
Love you Rief... :)

PS: beware..wait for belated supprise.. :p

independence day!

2009-08-17T14:11:00.013+07:00

Yeap today is indonesia's independence day...seems that everybody in this country, celebrate the day..red and white flag are all over the country...start with the ceremony on president palace...to traditional event made by the local people..just like what I see just about minutes ago..and still going on while I'm blogging :)

it's kind of a parade, and each of block in my environment take part of it..and the funniest thing is many Barongsai I found on block each presentation .Well it suppose for a chinese new year right..hehehe it's really interesting anyway..and not just that..Mbah Surip takes part too..hahaha...u can see on the pictures...yeaa..one of them present Mbah Surip for the theme... :)

so excited...full of crowd..good for me to have a view straight to the street, I dont have to get into the crowd to watch that...hehehe..hope everyone enjoy the day, hope this country gets better and live in united...Merdeka!!! :)

I'll be back...

2009-08-11T11:56:00.002+07:00

Helloooo..long time no see...heehehehe..sorry..I have lot of thing to do..so I missed the blog...it doesnt mean that it's not important..moreover I have a lot of things to share...well..i'm in hurry...just wanna drop to say HELLO..hehehehe...catch you later...keep blogging! :)

Hope

2009-06-28T16:39:00.004+07:00

hopes lives in a life..
brought all the posivity..
create believes under the dubiousness

it gathered into a dream...
wish that never end...
until it's happened...

heart that can not lie
learns to have understanding
surrender to the time..
face all to what it offers..
break and sad..

stay in the name of consistence ..

hope could failed..but it can't disappear...
it's just waiting to be true..

-G-

Jacky and Sunday

2009-06-28T09:47:00.006+07:00

I found there's somethin'wrong with the blog..nothin happened when I click the New Post button. I have try it over and over again, but still...hhhh...I miss to have a post. And if you know me..I wont give up for it..I try to find another way. Dont care how the way it is as long as i can get to a new post. And now here I am.. :)

Well it's Sunday..nice bright Sunday...I plan to do laundry..and I dont know..it's holiday...having my own time, would be nice for me. Watching movies, cartoon or just having a lazy time. Have I told you, that I finished last semester and plan to have a short semester on this July. I can't go anywhere for now, cause there's still some administration stuff to be done. Yeap! there's no long holiday for me..not like the others student. While they're on the beach or having fun, I still on my dorm room. Alone..missing home..Jacky & his fams.. and my boyfriend, for sure...

About Jacky..I've been dream about him on my lately nite. People said..maybe we both miss each other." Yea..my best buddy..miss our time together Jacky... Take you for a walk, Jogging on the sunday morning, play around or just sit together in silent". He's getting old, got sick and can't play much. Huff..It's too long I ignored him. I'm too busy with my self, he would think that I forget about him..huhuhu...Feels like I'm not a good friend for him... and I regret that, I'm sorry Jacky..miss you :'(

Twilight

2009-06-23T16:38:00.005+07:00

Well I know...too late to post this..but I still wanna share with you. Hmm..this movie tells about a love story...but what makes this so special..is about a vampire that found his soulmate *finally* after 90 years, not with another vampire..but with human,hot blood and not bite somebody's neck,hehe..yeaa..just simple as that. It's very suit to people who in love, so you better watch it with someones you love. It taken from a nice novel with the same tittle "Twilight" written by Stephenie Meyer. Nice story..nice cast..but poor effect. The move looks not natural, I can still feel the strings. That's just my opinion *like always*, I still watch it twice..hehehe...coz I really like the story and the character of Edward Cullen *yeaaa girlsss..*. For your information..this movie and the cast win some of the award on MTV Movie Award 2009. The sequel came out already, I can't wait to watch it.. :)

enjoying the time..

2009-06-11T22:06:00.011+07:00

I'm here! just having my test..and it's soooo..EASY..hahahaha...ya-ya..I'm having a tough week but ok...I know I can get through it. It's not over yet 'till next week..so I still need to prepare myself..for "the battlefield", just count on the spirits inside.. and thanks God..that my baby is always there for me even he's so far away *thanks rief.. :)* and thanks for musics too..for being my best companion of the time..hehehehe.. :p

All I want to do is relaxing..hhh kinda stress with those deadlines, tests..and all those papers....and I really want to go for a vacation..may be go visit my parents or go to another place...it would be a nice idea for me now...need to leave the routines..I need to take a break and having myself time...do all I want to do...watching movies, read comics*especially Sinchan :p*, take photos..blablabla....wish that my Rief can join me..it would be veeery niceee...hehehehe...

but for now...relaxing is uncommon thing for me...all I have to do is just enjoying the time..right? :)

Zzzz....

2009-06-04T00:48:00.006+07:00

Actually..it's already late at nite..but I still can't close my eyes..hmm...I've been not here for a week I guess..sorry..I do want to blog or somethin but too busy with the assignments..too many of them..one down and comes the other.. with sort deadline...huff..

am I too tired then it makes me awake?hmm...I dont know..

Or it just because of somethin' that bother me this time, moreover I'm in my period, then it becomes a big deal..hhhhh..girl...

I do want to sleep...I'm tired...need to recharge my energy..a lot of thing to do for tomorrow...and I need to get up early in the morning..

huhuhuhu.....can't sleep...what should I do?...

preparation

2009-05-26T10:23:00.005+07:00

the words have been said..
flow like a river..
created dreams...
and it built a hope...

now..
there's a question that came without an answer..
in my journey to my certainty...

I keep myself in silent..
coz belief is still there...
I feel grey start to bother...
then I try to hold myself from the fear..
try to remind myself..
that..letting go doesnt mean that I lost it...

between the hope and fear..I'm learning...
with a heart that prepare to broke..

"I'm fine...just in the middle of process for happiness..."

5th session

2009-05-14T23:11:00.005+07:00

well..this is my 5th session photo shoot..hehehe..finally I put in this blog..and yeap..just those three photos that OK to be published. This time gladly I used a SLR camera..hehehe...I borrowed it from one of my friends...Putri *thanks Putri* and it was in her room. I took some of her stuff and my self..hehe..yeap that's me..the camera face..I mean..with camera in my face..hehehe..and it's been so long that I dont have any pictures yet...hmm...I miss to take photos :(

Knowing

2009-04-29T09:19:00.003+07:00

This movie tells about a professor who stumbles on terrifying predictions about the future and sets out to prevent them from coming true. In 1959, as part of the dedication ceremony for a new elementary school, a group of students is asked to draw pictures to be stored in a time capsule. But one mysterious girl fills her sheet of paper with rows of random numbers instead. Fifty years later, a new generation of students examines the capsules contents and that girls message ends up in the hands of young Caleb Koestler. But it is Calebs father, professor John Koestler (Nicolas Cage), who found that the encoded message predicts with accuracy the dates, death tolls and coordinates of every major disaster of the past 50 years. As John further unravels the documents secrets, he realizes the document foretells three additional events the last of which hints at destruction on a global scale and seems to involve John and his son. John takes it upon himself to try to prevent more destruction from taking place. With the help of Diana Wayland and Abby, the daughter and granddaughter of the now-author of the prophecies, John's increasingly desperate efforts take him on a heart-pounding race against time until he finds himself facing the ultimate disaster and the ultimate sacrifice.

Hmm..at the beginning, this movies offer such a good story and scenes...but unfortunately, it's ending badly. But it's just my opinion..I do like the movie..but not the end part of it. Feels that it spoiled all the tension that this movie offered at the beginning. Hmm..really an unpredictable ending..but not the good one...so, what do you think bout that?..

FAST & FURIOUS

2009-04-24T14:31:00.005+07:00

After a successful run at hijacking fuel tanks on the highways of the Dominican Republic, Dominic Toretto (Vin Diesel) leaves his girlfriend Letty (Michelle Rodriguez) and his gang, as he is know as an international criminal. One day, in Panama, Dominic receives a phone call from his sister Mia (Jordana Brewster), who tells him that Letty was just murdered. Dominic returns to Los Angeles, California, to find out who murdered Letty. He receives the information that only through a street race, arranged by Ramon Campos, can he gain access to the man responsible for Letty's death. Meanwhile, Brian O'Connor (Paul Walker)now an FBI agent, is assigned to track down a notorious drug lord named Arturo Braga. Brian, after chasing down a criminal on foot, receives information also leading to David Park. Both Dominic and Brian, having received the same information are led to the underground entrance race that guarantees them a spot on the team that traffics heroin across the United States-Mexico border. Dominic ends up in aconfrontation with a racer identified as Fenix, the driver of the car that collided with Letty before firing the shot that killed her. Once on the United States side of the border, Dominic kills Fenix by crushing him with his car and Braga is finally apprehended by the FBI, as is Dominic.

I watched it twice..and stil want to watch it. It is an awesome movie. You can really feel the speed and the adrenalin in your blood. You won't regret after you watch this movie, especially for those people who like speed and action stuff. So... have you seen it?..

Beaches and a Canyon

2009-04-14T08:21:00.013+07:00

Last March I had vacation with my college friends. It was just couple days but it can't forgotten. They were Putri, Eka, Gro, Iza, Sandy, Rizka, David and me, it was eight of us. We started the journey in very early morning, to avoid the traffic. It took 8 hours to get there. After that long journey, finally we got into the place. Pangandaran beach, is the first destination. We found a place to stay in Mini Tiga, put our bags, take rest for a while and then we're looking for food, yeap we were very hungry because of the journey. We looked around *it was very hard to found the good one, especially the cheap one* and we got Soto Ayam and Coconuts for our late lunch.But not yet for beach after it, some of us still need to rest, then we went back to our homestay and took a nap.

Four hours is enough for us to recharge our energy. Well.....BEACH TIME! We took a walk because the beach is not too far from our place, it's about 100 meters or somethin. When I got there, I feel relief...Beach is a place that I've never go to since 10 years ago. Really love beach, quite and fun. Feel the wave and the wind, then you'll know what it's like. We played around, took some good pictures..we enjoyed the time. At night we had sea food for dinner and it's really good.

The day after that, at noon we checked out and went to our second destination, Batu Hiu Beach. It too just an hour from aour first place. The beach had big wave, but it was nice also. Especially when we were up into the canyon, the view is very beautifull. we just took some pictures and moved again to another destination.

Grand Canyon, in indonesia..hehehe..We actually not planned to go there, but we didn't want to miss this good place. So we rent a boat and got there. Really-really an amazing place, I still remember how I dare to do a free jump from one of the canyon, I did feel scare, well I'm a highphobia, but I just dont want to miss anything in this place. I really loved our times there. The friendship and the excited mixed together.

Actually, there was last destination for us, Batu Karas. Unfortunately, the rain fell down hardly and the thunder didn't give change for us. Then it was time to go home. I really enjoyed each moment I had with them, I can feel the care and even the love from them. Nice to have all of you as my friends. Well..can't wait for our next journey :)

4th session

2009-04-04T18:30:00.012+07:00

Hot drinks in the city

Dinner time

Yellow-low Bee

well...this is it! the 4th session of my shots, and as I already told you before *on 3 days of euophoria*, those photos taken when I was having time with my Cumi..who always give me nice critics of the time *even sometimes its very annoyed but....I need it,hehehe... thank you very much :p*. So how about that?it's not a SLR camera, just a phone camera...and I think it is the nice one. I guess it is all about my desire to take photos since I never had a SLR camera on me *again*. Then when I found a good camera, even just a phone camera, I just did it. Tried to take good pictures. hehehe...unfortunately, that's not mine neither, huhuhu...but thank you for lend me that phone camera..at least, I already relieved some of my desire to take photos...thanks Cumi :)

3 days of euphoria

2009-03-31T10:47:00.019+07:00

well..well...it only 3 days but I had a great times with him...really needs times for me to share all these story..hehehe..coz everytime I looked at those pictures..all those memories came up, and make me miss him so bad...but I guess now I'm ready..here we go...

Friday

We went to food court and had an early dinner then did a window shopping...looked for nice stuff to buy...and after that we played on billiard pool..and this was my plan to did it..it's already on my list..coz I really want to beat him..I lost in his first visited..and I tried to make it even..hehehe..but I lost again..huhuhu...and he still said that he can't play this game actually...well..guess he is so lucky... :p

Saturday

We had late lunch on Solaria. I ate fried kwetiaw and he had meat bistik+rice. Unfortunately, the place was very noisy..I'm sorry for that..coz actually we looked for a cozy place to talk..but at least, the food is very nice and served in huge portion...hehehe...after that, we shopped *he did actually*..

and had a 'hot drinks chat' in dunkin donuts..hehe..I did some of photo session there..hehehe..he had a good kind of camera cells..and I cant help myself to take photos..hehehe...moreover I cant always have my critics near to me, right?...so I dont want to waste my time..and the photos will be upload soon.. :)

Sunday

we started to had lunch in orange canteen. just ate indonesian food. He also forced me to bring tempe balado that I made for him..and I'm glad that he liked it. Look at that empty plate..yea..we were so hungry..hehehe...

then we went to a mall...and I found that he was still hungry..hehehe...here we ate again...our choice is Pizza..Pizza Hut..with gralic bread and spagetti..not only that...we also got the compliment soup..we felt so full after that...continued to go shopping again..it was not just a shopping..it was a game that we made...the game is ..we have to split and buy somethin for other for an hour and in a budget that already given. We did great...especially him..he really got me on high..hehehe..thanks baby...for the gift..hmm..I hope you like the gift..although I admit that I broke the rules when I bought it...I was over budget..hehehe...I just want to give the best for him:) after we played the game, we went home...so tired..and full...hehehe...

Dinner time!! and we think that "OBONK" would be a great place to eat. Steak...hmmm my favorite...we had a great time there..really enjoy the time...coz..that time was the last nite for us together...I did feel sad..but I dont want to miss a thing..thats why I tried to enjoy it...I really didnt want him to see me cry..coz I did feel so happy for the visit..and very thankfull for that...

we end those 3 days nicely...thanks for coming baby...and all those u gave me...I know you're in a hard times there...hang on...key?....I know you can do it...and I believe you will got what u want..semangaaat cumiii....

Now we're already back to our routines...for me..I still feel the euphoria..till today....
cant wait to do it again...and see u around cumi... :)

On the track..

2009-03-24T10:22:00.007+07:00

3 days of excitement..
I would call it that way..
yeaa..
just 3 days..but it's full of excitement...
full of different kind of feelings..
running through my soul...
my bright eyes..
my never stop smiling lips..
my joyfull..
all...that he brought to me is beautifull..
I can feel the light..the warm..

he got me fullfilled...

he's not gone but he's not here...
to where he got to be..
no holding hand..
no more warm hugs..
no more companion...

I still feel the warm of his soul...
inside...
but I got to wake up..
wake from the mesmerize..
and wait for the time to come back...

now all I have to do is...
trying to get myself on the track...

Last Weekend...

2009-03-16T10:20:00.009+07:00

Hey..hey..long time nooooo see...hihihi..ya-ya..I know...lot of stories to tell,hmm..start with my routines. Still..with those college assignments and presentations, its gonna be much more on week ahead, huhuhuhu..Well..what did I have on last weekend.hmm..*thinking*..oya..on last saturday, I went to my friends weeding...Yufi's, nice party..sundanese traditional one..and nice fooood...hehehe..from all those foods..I found zupa-zupa soup...and it was very delicous...yum-yum...

Not only found that yummy food..*and of course met the couple*...hehe..I met some of my old friends too...and of course the gurls is included..well you know...if girl meet girl..it would be a gossip time there..hehehe..yeap-yeap miss them very muuuch...although one of those girl brought her b/f, that was not bothering us at all...the girls still on gossip...not me..I'm too busy with the food..I just listened...hehehe :p

it was fuuuun...and when I saw the weds..it makes me wondering..when I will have those such a moment...and what it will be..hmmm...hehehe...just lil'thought :) Well..that was on last weekend...see you in another story... :)

Mellow?

2009-03-06T15:18:00.004+07:00

Hey..I got here finally..hehehe..well..kinda busy with myself, my thoughts and my feelings. Hahahaha..seems so complicated huh?not really..or I try not to make it that way.. :p hmm..started the semester..and got that tasks..again and again..but so far..I'm doing good..till now..hehe..hopefully I can make it through this whole semester..amien *wish me luck will ya? :)*

But something is bothering me days before..after all those "bright" process of my life..I feel so mellow..I love loneliness...darks suit on me..again...hmm..first..I did suprise for it, coz I enjoyed the "bright" already...get used to it but I have a kind of situation now..and "dark" offer me comfort zone..guess for now I better choose that..I dont want to get into something that I will regret..I know what to do..it just how I deal with it..and I'll wait.. for "someone" who can hold me back into the "bright"..and you know who you are...hope see u soon in "bright" :)

3rd session

2009-02-21T22:13:00.005+07:00

3rd session finally upload! those are the pictures that I told you before, on "Thank You Mr.Mentor". Most of the pictures are considered as"good" and few are "OK". Still need to practice more..but at least I have progress for each session...especially for this session. I finally got "good"mark and more pictures to be accepted..hehe not bad for three times session huh?:p Well this is my last session with Mr.Mentor, so I got to used the time well...that's why I tried to take the photo precisely..really dont wanna loose my time..and I enjoyed every moment of it..Its not only about losing Mr.Mentor, but the camera also..hehehe..well I dont know when I will hold a camera again..but its not gonna stop my passion for photograph..still on it...just be patience and learn..I know I will get my way to be with that lens again..someday...wait for another session will ya? :)

B-L-A-N-K

2009-02-20T23:09:00.002+07:00

"..................................................................................................................."

That is what in my mind...B-L-A-N-K...I need somebody to help me out..to be my trigger..and restart my engine again....I need "something"inside my mind...But I do have a feelin right now..a guilty feelin..for having this such a thing..I dont wanna hurt and troubled people that loved me..I'm sorry...

WaKe Up, Smile and Sing

2009-02-20T00:21:00.003+07:00

wake up..i’m here..
wake up..u r standing free..
wake up..and i’ll promise u there will be no more fear..

smile..and i’ll give u more
smile..coz thats why i’m here for…
smile..and u wont feel the wound anymore..

sing..coz thats how i want u to see..
sing..coz hey maybe thats also why you are here..
sing..so u can hear me whisper through your ears..

wake up, smile, sing,
stand up, look up, n trying
wake up, smile, sing,
there is nothing more sparkling than keeping this feeling..

seeing, caring, and luving..
u, u and u..
smiling, thinking, and missing…
u, u and u..

angie..
cepat sembuh y..:)

--September,21st, 2008, 04:21:21am--

this is what my baby sent to me when I was crumble and got sick because of it..its actually a text message..It gives me strenght when I read that...and I know..that I'm not alone..I got him now..thanks baby..you're sweet :)

About Me..

2009-02-20T00:12:00.005+07:00

This is what my baby tells about me...

"anggie tu ya..my other half,tau aja maunya aq apa..bs aja ngertiin aq gmn..sabar aja ngadepin smua yg ada ttg 'kami',anggie tu..strong believer,org yg optimis bgt, slalu percaya ma org2 yg dsekitarnya, kesabarannya bs ngebuat apa aja yg g mgkn bs jd mgkn,her spirit can break down any barrier in front of her..anggie tu take differences as a part of completion, dia bedaaa bgt, sifat, karakter, mindset, smuanya bedaaa bgt, tp dia bs yakinin klo itu la tujuan dr smua,saling melengkapi, love can beat all of the differences..last anggie tu.. a truly good lover, no other words can replace this, her tender, caring, makes u think that she's the only person u wanna be with..which i do..muah..just a simple words to let all of u know how i treasure her..yeap she's my other half..n yes i'm so glad to have her next to me..more than she ever know..or realize..can't wait to have u back in my arms..sharing our thoughts and dreams..only us..us..n us..luv -rief-"

really blow my mind...thanks bebh...Luv u too :)

Thank You Mr. MEntor

2009-02-19T23:20:00.004+07:00

My mentor is moving out to another town. He got a job,and his dream came true. Today, Its kind of farewell..we went to a Photo exhibition *cool photos*and then had lunch together...and after that, we separated, I went to college for a class..and he went home..after the class..we meet again and played bilyard and of course, he brought the camera...While he played, I took pictures..hehehe..Coz I think its gonna be the last time I can use it...I dont have camera, remember?? :p and that was my last photo session I guess.... :( When I took pictures while he played, once he was mad, coz I ruinned the farewell, and just with camera, I was not into the game. Then I got understand, I stopped..and back to the game...and see...I won..all that games...hehehe...*not all actually, most of it, I just make it hyperbole,hehehe) He asked that..dont blame if I'm a real champion..hehehe...after the bilyards..we had dinner...lil'bit chit-chat and went home at last.
I think I'm gonna miss him...*and his camera..hahahaha* but I'm glad his dream came true *hope mine too* wish you all the best Mr.Mentor...thanks for everything...

P.S: the Photos will be upload soon :)

Cumi Sent Me :)

2009-02-15T21:15:00.004+07:00

I'm so haaappy!! This is a greeting that my baby sent to me for..of course..Valentines Day. I know that this made in last minute before the day ends. Maybe for all of you, this is just like another Valentines greeting. But not for me..It meant A LOT...He just made it for me..Just for his Sweet Plum *blush*. I know It sounds corky, but...I dont care..coz I never get things like this before and because I miss him sooo bad yesterday..very bad..*infected by Valentines atmosphere :p* So no wonder if I'm so happy when I received that greeting, right? thanks Baby...I love it..*hug*So...how's your Valentines Day? I hope yours is good as I am :)

2nd session

2009-02-14T15:02:00.005+07:00

well..well..still...need to leaaarn...from 42 photos, just 2 photos considered as "OK". I'm not gonna give up, just wondering when I will have photo session class again, Mr.Mentor got a lot of stuff to do and to think for now. He's so busy, and his camera too,so I can't get any class for days ahead...if I have a camera, I probably take photo all the time..It will be a must things inside my bag :p and maybe...you will be my next object..so watch out!!hahahaha..think that I'm going nuts..hahahaha...btw..Happy Valentines Day..for all of you who celebrate it.. flowers (just like the photos :p) could be a nice gift for Valentine, girls would love it..so..wish u have a great Valentine! :)

Silent Word

2009-02-12T16:52:00.004+07:00

Today...started with morning interruption...word "why" is swimming through my mind...why is that?why is this?blablablabbla...keep rolling in my head'till I found that everything has their own reason..I just need to give time to hear that. Thanks God that I hear the voice of my heart. And everything is fine now..

I admit that I regretted myself on lately days. I should be in a place that I wanted to go if I had a holiday. But I can't..coz I dont have a required things that they asked. As u can see..I'm still here...then I prayed a "suprise" to be true..but *again* situation chose the opposite way. I knew it, it can't be happen but I still tried to convice my self that its still gonna be happen. And when it gone too far, I barely realized that I hurt myself. I got to face the truth. Its not gonna be happen. After flowed out those negative ideas in a discussion with my baby..I felt release..he knows what to do*I really feel blessed that I've got him for me now*. All I have to do is....be patience..and stay positive...can I?we'll see....I'm a real fighter or just try to be a fighter..

Relax in Cold Day

2009-02-06T22:58:00.009+07:00

Bandung is sooooo cold....I'm freezing..huhuhu..specially in this lonely time..hehehe, my baby is busy with his work. Well today finally go out and fun with cheche, my dorm friends. Talk bout what I missed on that dorm and somekind of gurls talk :P Actually I still have another test, the war's in college is not stop yet. But I got to relax, too stressfull will kill me..hehehe..never get out since I start this tests. My daily route is dorm-college-dorm. Just all that. No other destination. Bored but I have to, coz some of college stuff must be done and its really spent much of my time. Hhhhhh...but at least, few days ahead I can make myself relax before I start the tests again. Well..I expect my baby would be here at this time. But he's on duty, fight against the time and ideas, his feelin evenmore. Keep the spirit bebh! I'm just here..pray for you.... :)
Suddenly, something wrong happened with my stomach, I got stomach ache...it's hurt. Maybe I ate the forbidden food I should not take or it's just because the enter wind, hehehe....I dont know..I admit that I ate so much today. Cheche drove me to eat and of course I'd love to do that :p But No need to worry...the ache is already handled by now...and hope I'll be better tomorrow.. :)

1st session

2009-02-05T01:42:00.008+07:00

Those are my first photos taken on my first photo class session. Those are considered as "fine". Just 4 pictures from about 65 pictures in whole. Still need to have much learn. I'm doing the composition right now. It's not only supported by my mentor (who's sometimes be my model and lend his camera, you can see him in the picture, thanks Mr.Mentor), I got support from my love one too, Rief. I've got all that he knew from camera. Thanks bebh...its really helpfull and couraging me...:)

Waaaa!!

2009-01-29T23:16:00.003+07:00

This war really control my emotion..all those test bring my sickness into max...and I miss my baby sooo baaad...*when I'm gonna feel him around me?*...
I really dont know what happened in my mind..thinks that I'm going crazy..have you blank for a moment?and then suddenly something came up, and you think bout that more and more..then you feel hunger bout it..fell that you dont wanna loose it..dont wanna end...fells like it's gonna blow up...
Gee...what I suppose to do?....

Eagle Eye

2009-01-29T03:15:00.005+07:00

Well this movie directed by D.J. Caruso, tells about two strangers thrust together by a mysterious telephone call and their efforts to discover why they have to become the nation's most wanted fugitives. Jerry Shaw ( Shia LeBouf) and Rachel Holloman (Michelle Monaghan) were complete strangers at the beginning of the day, but that changed the instant a strange woman called to threaten both their lives and the lives of their loved ones. Suddenly forced into a series of increasingly dangerous situations, Jerry and Rachel must now take orders from a woman who's using everyday technology to track and control their every move. As the situation they must work together in order to discover who it was that turned their lives upside down, and what they can do to know the criminal mastermind's include the plan of it.

Cool movie..a lot of action found in this movie. It's about to escape, run and pick up the phone. If you seen "I-robot" before, starring by willl smith, Eagle aye had the same idea too, being controlled by machines. But you wont regret to watch this movie, because all the chasing part is good. Dont forget bout Shia Lebouf, who plays maturely from movie to movie and of course, sexy :p,what a breakthrough actor.. :)

Jemani..

2009-01-26T18:03:00.031+07:00

well..today My mom wanted to find a media plant. Media plant?? Just a kind of dirt right?well I dont know..my mom is a gardener, she knows bout those "stuff" better than me. Then she took me to a store which quitely similar to a garden. Its called Kuntum. I though it just a common store that sell various kind of plants. But not just that, there's a fishing pond, and I found many families were fishing and having fun there. It is a large place. So many green that my eyes catched. Its feel so nice to be that place. The plant is lovely, althought I dont know what kind the plants is. I asked my mom then, and suddenly it becomes a short class of plant. She told me bout those plant, from the name 'till how to take care of it.

Most that I found is anthurium kind. My mom had some of it. This one you see beside my photo..the big one, its jemani. Guess how much it is....its 4 milion IDR. I've heard before, bout a criminal who stole a plant, and I wondered what kind of plant it is, when I looked at the plant,for me it just like another ordinary plant. Today I met the plant, face to face and inside I told myself"..this is what they try to steal...", still...its like another plant..green...I dont know why it cost so expensive. Maybe because the simple treatment. My mom said, its only need 1 x in 3 days to give them water, can keep them inside,coz they cant take ultraviolet much. but Is that a good reason to be so expensive? and my mom said it can be more expensive when it gets bigger. it can reach to 200 million IDR. Crazy right?? but when it becomes hobbies, you may do anything to get it. I'm still wondering...why its so expensive...??

P.S

2009-01-26T17:55:00.003+07:00

P.S: I'm sorry for this unconvinient..still looking for the best template for my blog..hehehe...but dont worry..I still write the journey... :)

For someones who work it out, thanks for your help and your time... :p

I believe in "soon"

2009-01-15T03:14:00.004+07:00

I have a heart that smile
When we meet at the lights
and the world around disappears

Just you and me
On the island of hope
Let me surround you
My sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you see

Every time we close
There's too much I cant say
the only word I know is

I love you

would I have those dreams come true
back to your arm..

and then I believe in "soon"

But tonight is too long
And I feel cold here without you..

Bedtime Stories

2009-01-13T22:32:00.013+07:00

It's about Marty Bronson (Jonathan Pryce) who raises his son and daughter on his own has to sell his motel to Barry Nottingham (Richard Griffiths) who promises to make Marty's son manager, when he's grown up and has proven himself. Nottingham pulls down the motel to raise a pricey hotel. Although grown up, Marty's son Skeeter Bronson (Adam Sandler) works as a janitor and general servant, but unlikely as it seems, he still dreams of becoming the manager. When Nottingham announces a brand-new hotel project, he makes his future son-in-law, base Kendall (Guy Pierce), manager. At the same time Skeeter's sister Wendy (Courtney Cox) has to leave town for a job interview and asks him to alternate looking after her two children Patrick (Jonathan Morgan Heit) and Bobbi (Laura Ann Kesling) with Wendy's friends named Jill (Keri Russell). He doesn't get along with either Jill or the children, but his easy-goingness loosens them all up and once he starts telling his bedtime stories, the children grow fond of him and begin to bring in their ideas about how the stories should go. When the stories turn out to become true in real life, Skeeter tries to control the stories into a direction which will make his dream come true.

I got to say that the movie is not as best as The Museum. But for a fans of Happy Madison Production, I wont miss it. Still good for me. It's good for kids too, easy story, easy to understand. Full of imagination and funny of course. Oya, there's a kind of hamster in the movie. Fat and has unusual big eyes. Kinda freak but he's cute. I like to have one, He-he. The best part of the movie is when Skeeter got what he wants by manouver the story. It's tricky but cool isn't?When your dream come true and u can make it just like u want. Then what would u ask?..

Cold Holds..

2009-01-12T23:16:00.004+07:00

If you're indonesian, you probably know that Bandung is one of cold city in indonesia. It is a city in such a high land, and I heard from my dad, who lived in bandung when he was young, that bandung had a lot of plantation. It gave bandung fresh air and cold one. Feels like you got a clean lungs inside, free from toxic, feel so healthy, my dad told me that. But sad to say, now those plantation is not much as it was. Some of the tree change into fly over, or buildings. Then the heat came over to the city. Few fresh air and not cold as before.

Today..Bandung remind itself. Brrr...Dont know what happened with the weather, but it's cold, very cold. Thought it just felt outside, but cold still hold even I'm inside of the room. When I went home from college, those lonely streets make it more cold. Ha-ha..I can feel it through my pores. Even my nose can feel it. Need more sweaters or jackets to cover my lil'body.He-he..and right now..my hand feels cold, and hoping someone can make it warm. Would you?:)

todays thought

2009-01-04T21:03:00.003+07:00

baby..
wondering how busy u are right now..
what do u do there?..
look to the monitor...mouse in your hand..

what's in your mind?..

last nite..today...is rough...
ya..its not only bout you..but me too..
long journey that i've been through..
the pain..mistakes that i never regret..

what's in your heart?

I got to finish it..
got to be strong for you..and myself...
for us..

without your arms around me..
without your hand holding me..
without you by my side...

I dont mind to face it alone...
as long as i got your heart cover me..
as long as i knew u would not turn and leave me..
as long as i see u here...in my soul..

then i will fight...
holding to our commitment...
stand for you love and our better future...

it works!!!

2009-01-03T20:15:00.001+07:00

Finally...!!! after all the sicknees I've been through. The story can publish. fiuuuhh...I dont know what happen with this blogspot, the provider or myself. But its quite make me fed up with all of this. it almost 2 days, I can't post anything to the blog. Lot of question marks inside my head. "What Happen???"..But thanks God, He created me as a fighter, not a quiter, Ha-ha...I got to admit that i'm not good at those IT stuff. I just dont understand, Hehehe..*blushing*, but I keep searching how to make it work. Find the problem, Use my logic, do some efforts, lil'bit learn session and Taaaadaaaa....i can publish the blog as usual. I'm great or what?Ha-ha...nothing impossible as long as u believe in urself;)

Deer..

2009-01-02T23:30:00.010+07:00

What would u thinkin’ if u heard bout “deer”? Santa’s ride? Hmm..kind of meat? *kinda sad sayin’ this* or cute Bambi in Walt Disney’s story?...I’ve seen deer before, usually in the zoo, or TV. But never been so close. Guess u ‘re wondering why I’m Talking bout this. Yup! I got them right in front of me! So excited! U can see in the picture. We are so intimate. Ha-ha..Actually we got separated by the fence, it’s not a cage that the zoo has, its bogor palace fences. If u go to bogor, which is my hometown, u will found bogor Lil’forest and a palace in town. Inside the palace, there are a lot of deer live in the front yard. Unfortunately, we can’t get into the palace or the yard. It’s a restrict area. Just people from government such as president and his people, can enter that place. It’s one of president palace, what should I say.

Well I don’t want to tell bout the palace. Let’s talk bout the deer. U see the deer on the picture right? He was not that close at first. Lil’bit far but then he came to me. And u know what? He did the pose, like a model. Cute, right?hehe..When he got close, then I can see him more clear *I forgot to bring my glasses,hehe* They are nice, feel no harm. If u touch them *yea..I even touched them..wooo!:p*, their hair is not soft as the look. Like a carpet. Ha-ha. But still good when u can touch them. The white dots they had, look beautiful on their brown hair. I’ve heard that this kind of deer, which lives in Bogor Palace, is one of special deer. They can’t live outside that palace. They used to die if u move them to somewhere new. I don’t know why it happen, or maybe they just cant adapt the new environment; the weather, the air or even the grass. Or they’re kind of the spoilt one. Ha-ha. U can see they run, jump and play each other, feel free. And with the palace and trees, it becomes a nice picture to see, picture that u couldn’t see in other town:)

YaYaYa..

2008-12-30T18:44:00.004+07:00

Trying to post any story with english but not sure i have a good grammar to use,hehehe. Well at least I'm trying. Hmm..What story should i tell about? bout today? let c..today still had this flu and the cough is gettin worst. I'm thinking to change the medicine. This one is not fit on me. Hehehe..

Not important at all..What else?hmmm...ooo yea, I feel guilty today for not attending my class. Ya..is it weird to feel that? Coz most of my friend, which did that many times, used to feel glad, but not me. I feel guilty. Weird...or I'm just such a good student. yeaa..rite...hahahahaha...

I'm looking for a camera. yup! Wanna try to take photo again..hmm...i still take photos..but not with real camera. I used handphone's camera. Want to learn more bout camera. but still not know how to do it. hmm...I look all websites that related to camera stuff..and more I read that, the more i want to know bout it and...i feel hunger to hav camera. Ugghhh...why those cameras seems so expensive??uughhhhh.....cant hold this feelin...hehehehe....really want to have and use real camera...huhuhu..but they're too expensive. I dont have reason to tell my parents bout it, or even to make them afford it. Got to proved myself first..Got to find it by my self. Fight!!! what should I do first??hmmm..hehehe..

macet+rame=NO!

2008-12-28T19:35:00.003+07:00

Pagi tadi..bangun..badan yang gak enak banget..Demam...kirain ne hidung udah gak mampet lagi, ee taunya makin jadinya mampetnya, ngomong jadi gak jelas. tissu jadi temen terbaik deh. Belum lagi batuk. Huhuhuhu. Panca roba nee...cuaca ganti-ganti gak jelas, kadang panas, kadang dingin. Itu juga panasnya gak panas aja, tapi juga panas bangeeet. Dinginnya..dingiiiiiin bangeeet. Jadinya yang cuma istirahat di rumah, lagian gak tau juga seh mo kemana. Hehehe..

Bentar lagi yang mo taun baru gini. Hmm..seperti biasa banyak yang bakal bilang, "gak terasa ya..". Udah banyak yang di lewatin, di rasain, seneng, sedih..macem-macem pastinya. Yang malesnya nee, banyak yang nanya "mo kemana taun baru?ngapain?", dan aku gak tau jawab apa. Mang gak ada rencana apa-apa see. Party?duuuuh..maless..jalan-jalan dipastikan macet. Tempat-tempat liburan dan hiburan di pastikan penuh sesak. Apa yang mo di nikmatin kalo udah gitu? ramenya? ributnya?ato kebersamaan?..terserah lah orang punya kesenangannya masing-masing. Tapi kalo aku sih gak bakal bisa nikmatin jadinya. Mending di rumah, nonton TV ato film plus cemilan favorite. Garink see memang, tapi ya daripada berurusan dengan yang namanya macet and crowd mendingan gitu deh. Atau kalo mang pengen buat acara, mending di rumah aja, jelas, gak kena macet, ma orang-orang terdekat, lebih asik lagi ma pacarr*huhuhuhu*..asik banget dah! Ya itu rencana..kalo ada tawaran yang lebih menarik. Ok aja. Asal gak berurusan ma macet and keramaian. Dan satu lagi, itu juga kalo ada yang ngajakin. Hehehehe...Ada ide??...

envy..

2008-12-26T14:43:00.005+07:00

hmm...sitting here..with my cousins and her BF..a couple...hmm...tryin' to hide what i feel inside. Kinda envy..yup i'm envy..looking them have each other closely..hold even kiss..ughhh..its gonna be tough! would u help me cumi?:) Dont u know? that i'm thinkin bout u, everyday..u, u, and u. I've got u in my days. Cumi...pengen ngerasain kamu deket and real ada deket aku..jalanin hari berdua..lewatin hari berdua..pokoknya kamu deket..egois gak seh aku bilang gitu? cuma pengen bilang..di atas semua ini aku ngerti kok. I know ur dreams and ours, aku gak bakal ngalangin itu semua. aku bakal ada, selalu, selama kamu masih pengen aku ada. i'll always be right here even when everybody leaves u behind. U got my faith on u...

Gracia

2008-12-20T18:54:00.015+07:00

Well...cerita berawal dari kebosenan ku dan kawan-kawan dari kampus tercinta, yang penat akan seminggu sibuk kuliah. Tugas-tugas yang menumpuk dan presentasi yang bikin pusing. Akhirnya kami bersepakat untuk mengadakan perjalanan *aih..bahasanyaa...*. Terpilihlah tempat pemandian air panas bernama Gracia, di salah satu daerah lembang. Tempatnya menyenangkan, batu-batu alam menjadi pilihan material untuk kolam yang di pakai, seolah menyatu dengan alam. Kesan yang di dapat adalah kenyamanan di tengah dingin malam. Tidak hanya itu, tapi juga bersih dan tentunya air yang di sediakan mempunyai panas yang sesuai dengan yang dapat kita pergunakan.

duh...capek ih ngomong gitu...ya sudahlah..nah aku pergi sama Eka, Sandi and b'david, malem gitu deh. Pas kita berangkat itu yang hujan lebat, begitu nyampe..hujannya ngerti, berhenti deh dia. Pas masuk pertama kali ke airnya..beuuuuh..syaik banget..*hehehehe*Kita yang bener-bener nikmatin waktu itu, istirahat, nyantai, ngobrol gitu..mpe yang namanya foto-foto. Gak nyangka cowo2 itu ternyata banci foto juga..hihihihihi...tapi beneran bagus sih hasilnya, tempatnya ok sih. So, kalo pengen ngumpul ma temen sambil berbasah-basah n berpanas ria..mending kesini deh...di saranin buat pergi bukan di hari weekend, trus yang malem gitu perginya..jadi yang sepi..and jadi private kayak punya sendiri..hihihi..coba deh...

its war..

2008-12-20T18:01:00.005+07:00

my emotion play me around
I cant think the way i used to..
i do have anger..but not like this...

my mind's trying to find
the meaning of all those thought
feel like i'm trap in hollow hole...
what am i thinking?
what do i fear bout?
what make me like this?
my little heart keep say that..

if there someone who should be blame for this?
well, i'm the one...
I'm the one who got the trouble..

well its war my friend...
my ownself war..

kenapa sih G??

2008-12-20T16:34:00.004+07:00

duh..lagi gak jelas...kenapa ya?..sensi..trus yang berasa pengen marah aja kalo ada yang gak sesuai. Terlalu jujur ma perasaan?gak pa-pa lah kalo gitu mah..jujur aja gini, gimana kalo nahan atau bohong..beeeuhh..gak tau deh..atau aku bener-bener lagi gak tenang? tapi kenapa?..ih...males deh kalo ngerasa gini...hhh...bete...apa gara2 mo dapet ya? cepetan dunk..gak enak tau kalo kayak gini, mo maraaah aja bawaannya, cemburuan..emosi yang jungkir balik gitu..akh pokoknya jadi orang yang menyebalkan gitu deh...Jadinya tuh yang buat orang sekitar jadi pada bingung..apalagi si cumi..duuuh..maap ya cumi...aku juga gak ngerti nee...lagi dateng galau..ihhh jadi ngerasa bersalah juga, nah itu lagi..gak enak tuh ngerasa begitu..huhuhuhuhu..udah sampe rumah, bukannya tambah baik, tetep aja gini..ada kemajuan dunk..ayoo try harder G..apa Yoga an aja?kata orang bisa bikin tenang..hehehe..*sempet2nya gila..G banget*ayo dunk..kelarin aja napa seee...tapi gak tau kenapa ne..jangan nyari kambing hitam....kenapa sih G??...b strong dunk....hadepin...cemen aja nieeee....

:(

Milky Way

2008-12-17T12:44:00.016+07:00

Pulang kuliah trus nongkrong ma temen-temen di tempat dengan pemandangan tebaran lampu kota. Seperti ngelihat bintang-bintang, berasa kita di atas awan..lagi terbang. Bukan pengen lebay..tapi percaya deh. Kalo kamu ngeliat pemandangan itu langsung, bakal ngerasa yang sama. Yaa..sorry kalo potonya gak jelas gitu, hehehe..kamera nya pake HaPe doank..hehehe

Ni foto di ambil di dua tempat yang berbeda..
Yang pertama dan kedua, di Resto namanya Gampoeng Aceh, daerah Dago Pakar Bandung, gak jauh dari kota..nah yang dua lagi itu, diambil di tempat yang namanya MOKO, padasuka naiiik lagi...wah kalo tempat ini mang jauuuh di atas, yang naik-naik ke atas bukit gitu..kalo mo pake kendaraan, mending pake yang cruiser gitu deh, terjal abeess...pake motor? mesti yang expert bawanya, kata temen..pas dia naik motor k sana, dia yang zig-zag gitu bawanya..soalnya kalo lurus gak kan kuat motornya..bisa mundur...yaaaaaaa getooo..tapi kemaren pas aku kesana mang yang rada ribet pas naiknya (ramean ma temen2, pake xenia). Sampe mesti ada acara turun dari mobil and jalan kaki, lumayan jauh, plus angin dingin..berasa kaki pada putus semua..hehehehe...gara-gara xenia nya gak kuat gitu...kita deh yang gempor...

Semua nya jadi worthed begitu udah nyampe tempatnya, Moko, baguuuusss banget...sampe gak inget udah berapa kali deh aku bilang "bagus"..hehehe..beneran bagusss..(tuh bilang lagi)..Citylight bandung kelihatan semua...SEMUA..ntah lebay ato gak, tapi sejauh kita liat dari ujung ke ujung mang kelihatan gitu. Romantis gila!!! pas buat couple, dingin...sepi..jadi yang private gitu..(hehehe)..yang penting itu pemandangannya..citylightnya...kayak milky way gitu...malah ya, sebelum nyampe tempatnya (pas nanjak2 gitu), pemandangan udah bagus, uuugghh..palagi pas nyampe Moko nya...boleh bilang bagus lagi gak? hehehe...trus ya..kata temen, gak cuma malem aja bagusnya, siang juga bagus..pengen nyoba lagi, tapi ma sapa ya?hehehe

akkkhhh..udah deh, daritadi bagus ke bagus mulu..cek aja kesana kalo mau tau... cu there;)

*cumi...someday ya...*

Our Journey...

2008-12-15T11:48:00.005+07:00

We walk together, with ur hand in mine...and love shines in our eyes...

Place we went to...
-Airport
-BIP
-BIP Music
-BIP hypermarket
-BIP Three Colors Studio
-BIP M2 studio
-BIP Time Zone
-BIP Yoppie Salon
-GMC
-Dago Money changer
-PVJ
-PVJ Macintosh
-PVJ ATM BCA
-PVJ Petshop
-PVJ Gramedia
-Blooby entertaiment
-Kebun Binatang
-Warung Depan Kosan
-Ratu Cell
-Kunang-kunang Lembang
-Warung Lembang
-Nav Dago
-Nav Ciwalk
-Dapla Barcode
-Ciwalk
-Ciwalk 21
-Ciwalk Yogya
-Ciwalk M2 studio
-Ciwalk Petshop
-Gramedia Dago
-Plago Shooters

Place where we eat....
-kantin aa'
-Sekeloa Ayam kampus
-BIP Food Court
-PVJ Cafe Halaman
-Cafe Cabe Rawit
-Warung Orange
-Kapau Jaya DU
-Kapau Jaya FKG
-Cafe Ngopi Dulu Hasannudin
-Cafe Ngopi Dulu
-Obonk's-Ciwalk Texas Friend Chicken
-Mister Kopi
-Dapla Raja Aceh & Joe's cafe
-Ciwalk Emporium
-Dapla Mister Sumpit
-BIP Dunkin Donuts
-Sate Padang Pangdam

We used to ride...
-angkot Caheum-Ciroyom
-angkot Kelapa-Dago
-Taxi Gemah Ripah
-Taxi Airport

We walk side by side...
-kebun binatang - Ck cafe halaman
-RS Hasan Sadikin - PVJ (PP)
-Sekeloa
-Sekeloa - Kapau Jaya
-Sekeloa - Ngopi Dulu (samping Cabe rawit)
-Sekeloa - unpad
-Sekeloa - Jetset FO (PP)
-Simpang Dag0 - Sekeloa
-Dago Money Changer - BIP
-BIP - Dapla (PP)
-Bagusrangin - mister kopi
-Ngopi Dulu - Sate padang- sekeloa
-ATM bca dago - CK cafe halaman

do I miss sumthin'?reminds me...

cant wait to do it again...
cant wait to have myself back into ur arms...
looking in ur eyes..smell u...and kiss u...

"see u soon"

not that scary rite:p